A Look Into The Future

Over the weekend I took the first steps of my new and exciting adventure...college by attending orientation. I arrived for the over night early on Thursday morning not knowing what to expect. I would have to be on my own for two days; I didn't know anyone at orientation and that scared me.
I'm not very sociable, except around people I have known for a while or when I meet new people and our personalities click. Well, I soon discovered that either I have absolutely no social skills or I'm just an uninteresting person. It was the same around everyone I met. It was an awakward hello; usually initiated by saying, "is someone sitting here?" Then the 5 most important questions were asked:
1. Where are you from?
2. What's your major?
3. Are you living on campus?
4. Do you play sports?
5. Was this your first choice college?
That was the extent of my conversations all weekend. Sometimes I threw in a few other questions, but it was never enough.
I can't imagine going through the first few weeks or month of college with no one to talk to. Sure I'll have a roommate, but will I get along with her?
Another thing I realized, just within the first day of college, was the choices I would have to make. I met someone and we talked and hung out a little during the day. Later on, she mentioned that she knew someone who brought alcohol and wanted to know if I wanted to go. I easily avoided the situation by finding other people to meet. I also could have easily went along, but I was afraid of being caught.
Besides alcohol there's a lot more freedom living on your own and I'm going to have to make my own decisions, schedule my own time, etc. I'm scared I'm going to screw up, but I'm excited to begin college.
My mentor said, "Isn't it funny that the things we are most scared about, we are the most excited about?"
So, I guess this means I'm going to have to make friends wether I'm sociable or not. I'll have to make my own choices, even if people don't agree.