April 28 1997 1:04 am
Well hopefully David had a better day then I have. It was his birthday on the 27th. He is the big 30. He has a good stable job, a wife that loves him and wants to bear his children. Could I be any more opposite to him?
What ever course I choose in this life I must follow it to the end. Even though I don’t know when it will end or where, I just pray I will not be alone. It has been a year sense I realized I loved Val, I don’t know the actual date but I know it was in April. How can I continue on without her, and does she still love me? The other day I did a reading (Tarot) and asked if there was any hope for Vic and I. The final outcome was stated as getting freedom at a great cost. Yes am free of that nagging sense for love, but what was the cost? Can I ever be happy with another woman like I was with Val?
Only time will tell.
T
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Why yes I can be happy with another woman like I was with Val. Her name was Bren, which did not last either. Damn! I am 0 for 2. Whiskey Tango Foxtrot! Talk about a slump.
Well hopefully Mike had a better day then I have. It is his birthday on the 20th. He is will be the big 26. He has a good stable job, a wife that loves him and wants to bear his children. Could I be any more opposite to him?
I see a pattern here. I have the good stable job it that counts for anything. I hate it, but it pays the bill so I can do thing that does not pay the bills. That is how my friend put it when he was working at his job.
When you can’t find the answer, you look anywhere you can. Sometimes reading Tarot cards help. I don’t believe that it will tell the future. The future is not set in stone. Tarot can make think of things that you did not before. “Freedom at a great cost” What was the cost, my innocence. I don’t mind paying that cost. I had to pay it sooner or later. Better sooner and then get it over with. I am a better person. A little cynical but with more wisdom then I had before. I can live with that.
(Authors Note. Sad to say that Mike's is no longer married. I am sorry that it did not work out but like I always have said, "Sometimes you have to walk though the manure to get to the flower garden." The girl he is seeing now is much better.
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