February 6, 1997 9:09 pm
Things between Laurel and my self have been growing stronger. I still am waiting for her to accept me and love me. She is still unsure. Part of her does not want to and part of her does. What I do know is if she does commit to a serious relationship she will want to get married soon. That will take some time getting used to. As for me I want to get married but I don’t want to enter a marriage with all my bills, and there does not seem to be and end in sight. If I can just get my Escort paid off it would be a great burden that has lifted.
And then we come to kids. I know I want kids but I want to know I can support them also. Who knows, I can’t say how I will react to a situation until I am in it. So until then we will just have to wait and see.
T
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I really don’t know how to comment about this entry. As you can tell Laurel and I did not work out. Last I heard of her she was married, and I am not. One thing I did not expect to see is my little brother married before me. That just shows you how funny, strange and unexpected life can be. I wish him all the best and just know this one thing, “It is not just your life any more, you have to share and include her in your future.”
It is funny, for someone who has never been married, and does not have the best of luck with relationships, I am pretty wise. Maybe I just don’t follow my own advice. Who knows.
You know I just can’t get the feeling to write much more. So I will just end it here.
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