Dec 5, 1996 12:24am I have tried to call Linda but no one home, or she was home but ignoring me. That is one thing I hate about caller ID. If you don’t want to talk to someone, don’t answer the phone. She could at least find out what I wanted. I know Carrie is mad at me for some reason. I wanted her to talk to me but for some reason it looks like will have probably have to talk the fist step. I just hope I can get though to her. Sometimes I can go long periods without thinking of Val then sometimes I can not get her off my mind, with a thousand questions unanswered. Does she miss me? Does she still love me? Will there ever be a next time? I know it is better to cherish the time we had together but it is so hard. I still want to Denise out but I can never get her alone to ask. Maybe I should call her when I know she is at work. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ The things about having people mad at you and you don’t know why is this, you what to try and fix it. All my life I never had anyone mad at me, not when I did not know why they were mad. I want to try and find out why. I want to smooth thing over Now I would just want to tell people who are mad at me to kiss my ass. If some one is made me, then that is there problem not mine. If I did something wrong and I know it, I will me a man and apologize. If I know I did nothing wrong or if they don’t want to tell me, Screw Them. They can me mad at me all they want. I am satisfied with the knowledge that some one who is mad all the time is just making unwanted stress for themselves, and it is having a bad affect on there heath. Get the F*ck over it! Be mad, let it pass, and get on with your life. You can bet that I am not worrying about it more then you are. I have moved on. If my former fiends are still mad at me so what. I don’t care. They made me feel like I was the bad guy. I gave them that power, never again. I refuse to let someone make me feel that low over something I did not do. What the hell was I thinking?