Have you ever felt like you just wanted to crawl out of your own mind? I definitely have. I would express my feelings with my friends, but truthfully I don't have many close ones, and I'm guessing the people on here are more likely to understand what I am feeling.
Sometimes, I get so overwhelmed with thoughs, such as what's going on in the world, like animal cruelty, homelessness, poverty, wars, poltics, gay marriage, abortion, etc. I think about the causes of them and how they need to be changed. It's so hard to focus on one thing. If you feel so strongly about more than one cause, and you spend all your efforts on only one, do you feel like you are short changing the other causes? Sometimes I do. I feel like there are so many different things out there, if I donate time or money to one, it's almost like the other ones are losing out. I don't have enough time or money to help all those causes! I know this, but its hard not to feel guilty about helping.
Sometimes I think about my own life. I am the type of person that has her whole future mapped out. I don't have a time-line or a deadline for anything, but I have definite ideas for what I want to do. (Go to college, get a doctorate, open a school, etc) and I have ideas for being a wife and mother as well. Sometimes, I get so overwhelmed thinking about everything I have planned. I almost get paniced thinking about all the things I want to do, but yet, know I won't have time to do it all. I want to do EVERYTHING, and I know I can't.
I'm not a worrier, really. I just can't shut off my brain sometimes. When I lie in bed at night, occasionally I will stay up an extra hour, laying there trying to shut off my brain. I constantly think of scenerios of the next day, I plan out everything I need to do the next day (talk to a teacher, make up a test, remind a friend, etc). I also find the need to keep my brain occupied. I rarely sit with a blank mind, which I guess is good...it shows that I am ready to learn at all times. Sometimes I just want to crawl out of my mind and take a break!!!! I feel guilty if I do less than my best on a project, or don't study for a test. Does anybody else feel like this???
Like any "normal" person, I wonder if I am, in fact, crazy. I don't remember who wrote it/said it, but there is a quote that I remember vaguely, which says that if you can question whether you are crazy or not, you obviously aren't, because a crazy person thinks they are normal. Does this sound like anybody out there? I also plan on being a Psychologist...i wonder if I go to get a "mental evaluation" if it could ruin my carrer before i even have one. I am sorta worried that I'll end up being crazy, which would just about smash all my dreams.
I'm not quite sure how this is progressive. I'll take a stab at it, though, and say that if more people realize that there are people that feel the same as they do, they will have better lives. They won't stress too much about themselves, they'll be comforted knowing they aren't that "different".
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