I'm currently in a pretty committed relationship.
We have been together for about 17 months.
I am 17 years old.
I'm not trying to say that because I am seventeen that I am incapable of being able to love my boyfriend, I just grown skeptical of love. Why? I've been in a few relationships in my time--no, I haven't been around the block, but I've dated enough boys to be able to judge my feelings and to be able to tell if I really am serious about this current boy. Only once before did I really think I was in love. My first relationship. Now that I think about it, and looking back, I was just a naiive 15 year old girl who opened herself up a little too much for that boy. We didn't really do much, only kissed once, the relationship was majorly emotional and connected in a different way. We never did anything sexual, thank god, and like I said had only kissed once. Our relationship consisted of talking on the phone well into the night and seeing each other about twice a month. I loved him, but not the way I thought I had back then.
I've had 3 serious relationships.
That first one.
My 3rd relationship with a boy named James. He was a great kid, but it just didn't work out. I didn't like him enough, I was crazy about the kid I'm with now--
Matt.
I really am just god--head over heels for him. He makes this thing we walk on called Earth stop spinning. :] The clock stops tick tocking and my heart starts beat beating a whole lot faster.
I have a feeling I feel for him much stronger than he does for me. I don't have a problem with that. We're 17 and I don't expect too much from boys right now because--simply that we're 17. (Well, he's 18 now.)
I'm very aware of the fact that one day in the future, whether this day is near or not, that someone could easily walk in and change everything.
Neither of us have too simple of lives and we're here for each other a lot and we depend on each other a lot. I believe this causes some strain however, I think it strengthens our feelings for each other slightly too.
Am I wrong when I say that we shouldn't worry ourselves with love right now?
I told him back on our anniversary this:
"we're 17. we're young. one day someone could come along and sweep either you or me off of our feet and completely change the world as we know it. we don't know. we can't know until it happens. if we were really meant to be, then as time passes, we'll grow closer and closer and we'll fall in love--with each other. if we're still together in 10 years and in love...then we'll know it was meant to be."
it's quite possible i'm in love at 17...
isn't it?
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