I'm sitting next to her, my girlfriend Myranda, with the doctor examaning her leg. At age two she had been ran over by a riding lawn mower and from there her life was changed forever.
I recently took a trip with my girlfriend and her mother to the St. Louis Shriners Hospital. Shriners is an organization solely devoted to helping children with dissabilities. When Myranda's leg was cut off by those fierce blades everything in her world would be different. Or at least you'd think it would be.
Myranda walks, talks, thinks, and lives just like everyone else. I've already writtena post about something along the lines of this so I wont brush up on it any more. What I am trying to get to though is that my girlfriend is extremelly succesfull and sitting next to her in that doctors office and seeing how strong she was and how even though everyday she has a constant reminder of what happened to her 15 years ago. She is so strong and so brilliant. Everyone in that hospital looks up to her and I found myself just another in the croud.
Sitting there and listening to her talk about going to Guatemala to give speaches and how there was a video made about her and all these things just made me realize how amazing and great she is and how amazing and succesfull she is going to be in the future.
Sometimes I wonder how I managed to meet such an amazing girl and sometimes, probably more that I should, I wonder how such an amazing girl would want to be with me.
I'm not going to be a famous doctor or an inspiration to thousands of people. I'll probably only inspire a few and teach many. I'll live my life humbly and quietly while she will be dominating in everything she does. I just cant help but feel that someday I will not be able to keep up with her. She tells me that she will never leave me and everything but I still worry and I still wonder. I still want to be more and do better just so I dont lose her.
Maybe I am just over exagerating everything and I'm sure that everything will be fine. But one thing that I always struggle with in my life is "THE WHAT-IF'S"
What if she leaves me
What if I'm not good enough
What if I dont graduate from college
What if things done work out
What if everything worked out just the way I wanted it to and more. I dont know. I'm sure everything will be fine.
Whats something that always trips you up when you think everything is going perfect?
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