This entry i going to be a little different.
What's the point of psychology? I mean, really? It's a legitimate question.
For the last two years, I've been under treatment for bipolar disorder and ADHD. I realize it takes time to work things out as far as treatment, but things recently came to a rather difficult point and it's made me think.
Where is the science in all this? Aren't psychiatrists trained to be able to reason out what's going on with someone and treat them accordingly? All I've seen so far is "Well let's increase the dosage" "Let's change your medication" or "Let's add something to your regimen."
And it's all just made the problem worse. I'm supposed to be stabilizing my moods, not having all my emotions and thoughts taken away from me. And yet I'm on two mood stabilizers and and ADHD drug. I'm emotionless...I can't even be happy about my upcoming trip to Canada to see my girlfriend.
How is this science? It seems more like a wild goose chase to me.
I know psychology is an awkward science. I want to be a psychology nurse, after all. But it seems to me that this constant experimenting is a bit dangerous. I know that all the other patients go through the same thing...I am by no means the worst of the young women sitting in that waiting room every third Wednesday.
I wondered, actually, just earlier today, if the goal of psychology might have actually been to force everyone into society's nice little bubble of normality. Because I am not "normal", must be mentally ill. because I allow myself to feel, and to to express those emotions, I must need to be monitored and medicated.
Is it possible that perhaps, my personality only makes me more human than some?
I need human contact. I need to be loved, I need to love others. Otherwise, I can't function properly. That's what lead to my breakdown and diagnosis. I need people.
Humans are naturally drawn to each other. I'm not, by any means, saying that we are supposed to live in tight-nit hippie communes or something. Simply that we depend upon each other for survival and emotional stability. Some of us need people more than others. That's not considered normal, apparently. So we have to medicate these people and force them to live the way society says they should live.
There is a reason why humans have such complex emotions. We aren't supposed to acknowledge these emotions, however. If a person expresses their strong emotions, then they are not normal. They need to be medicated and watched so that they do not interrupt the consistency of our society.
When I was a small child, I played make-believe games. I pretended to be characters from my favourite television shows. I had a very vivid imagination, and I still do. however, the elaborate games that I made up worried people. They wondered if perhaps I had a problem, if I was somehow separated from reality. You see, people aren't supposed to pretend that they are living in a palace on the moon. That's not normal.
Psychology seems to me to be a bit more of an attempt to make everybody "fit", rather than a science based on the need to help people.
There are some who genuinely need medication...people who pose a danger to themselves or others.
but those people who are just not normal, those people who have emotions or need other people or have vivid imaginations, I don't see what's wrong with that.
I'm not violent, I would never hurt anyone intentionally. I'm not separated from reality. I'm just emotionally expressive and I need to be near others sometimes.
Is someone like me really such an issue?
Can someone please tell me what is wrong with modern psychology? Or is my thinking so flawed that I'm just blowing hot air and not making any sense?
What is going on here?
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