Title taken from the song by Rihanna and Neyo. Is there someone in your life that you hate that you love?
I hate the fact that I love my girlfriend. Life with my girlfriend has brought pain, tears, stress, hardship, dishonesty, and suspicion into my life. My family does not trust me, people don't talk to me, i get ostracized. Life with my girlfriend has brought me love, strength, hope, laughter, and happiness. When I am feeling down my girl can cheer me up and make me smile. She is my rock and backbone.
I hate that I love her because life without her is shit. Point blank. If I didn't love her, I would not have this gap between my family and myself. They would talk to me like a family member and not an outcast. i would not feel insecure when meeting new people. I would not feel guilty about looking at other girl's asses (ha ha). I would not feel so lost and confused. I could be independent and not depressed. But I love her, I wont let her go. She is my rock 30 hours away. She is not here for me to cry on but I love her.
Sometimes I just hate that I love her.
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