I just need to write this to get it off my chest:
Life comes with its ups and downs and I am so sure of it that in two years all the problems that seem never ending to me right now, will be so mundane then. but quite frankly, I'm living in today and not the future, so I must deal with it before I can ever be able to move on.
I think the best part of life is learning. We continue to learn as long as we let ourselves. I decided to make a list for you and I so we can remember what's really important in life.
1. Don't let fear paralyze you. fear can keep you from learning, meeting people, and doing amazing things...
“I only want twelve ice cubes in my coffee!”—
“I want a fish fillet with Mac sauce and one with ketchup and mustard!”—
“Crispy chicken. . . .No, grilled…No, crispy. . No. . . . Wait!” —
I knew it would soon end, I felt you slowly beginning to slip away, I gave you my all, my heart and soul all I ever asked was that you not hurt me or cause me pain, but even that was too much to ask. You promised me forever, I knew our friendship wouldn’t last but I chose oblivion over reality, I tried my best to keep you by my side. I blamed myself for letting you slip, feeling like I wasn’t good enough, as if it were my fault you wanted out. I loved you with everything I had. I chose to be your friend through it all. I didn’t want to let you go, I didn’t want to feel like a failure, as if I wasn’t the great friend I so often claimed to be. Through the lies, the pain, and the broken promises, I stood by you, believing you would change.
People have a tendency to find a purpose for living and if we say that there is no purpose, they become depressed. Why? Can't we just accept our lives and enjoy it?
