sometimes i get glimpses of it
waiting on the bus stop, before i go to sleep at night, in the middle of the day
the wait a minute can it be? yep this feels like normalcy
but then i wake up and it's hot, so hot
writing unrhyming poetry in my head that has no meaning
maybe these short glimpses are as good as it gets Read More »
Okay, so today I feel less Rah Rahish, but there is something I'd like to tackle. I just read a blog by a gimp (her word, not mine, so used with tacit permission) who was discussing her new need for attendant care quite well. Read More »
As I sit here, enduring my 6th feeding of the day, it's very hard for me to believe that in 24 hours I will be in a completely different place. For two and a half months I've been fed properly, therapized, and said the words "I feel" so many fucking times I'm about to eliminate it from my vocabulary. Read More »
For as long as I've been at the HG, I've tried to avoid one thing (other than food):
Going to the bathroom at the same time as my therapist. Read More »
eating disorders effect 1 person out of every 100 in the U.S. 95% of those with an eating disorder are the ages 12-25 and 10% of people with eating disorders are male. Over the years eating disorders have become a growing problem among young men and women in america. Read More »
One day surfing the web I came across a very disturbing website with hundreds of members who, to my surprise were embracing anorexia and bulimia as a lifestyle; well, a majority of them anyway. And as I delved deeper into the sites pages, from the warning message on the first page, to the forums, and the thinspiration pictures, I found two sides of the story, and a community of friends. Read More »
It's really aggravating when someone just sits there, clearly irritated, and says nothing about it. Maybe that happens a lot in the real world, but here at the HG, I'm so used to processing my damn feelings that if someone is clearly hiding something, it bothers me. Read More »
So I kind of accidentally spent a rent's worth of money on a new wardrobe today.
Oops.
But seeing as my mind can rationalize anything, I thought of this:
Having an eating disorder makes you not want to wear form fitting clothes or look in mirrors.
Part of the healing process is WEARING form fitting clothes and LOOKING in mirrors. Read More »
