I spent last weekend in Chicago. A small group of us rode out there Saturday morning from Indianapolis. Our main objective was to go to a bike (motorcycle) and scooter show. Mods VS Rockers is an annual event of most of the chapters of the Ton Up Club. It was an eventful ride, both there and back.
Okay, so today I feel less Rah Rahish, but there is something I'd like to tackle. I just read a blog by a gimp (her word, not mine, so used with tacit permission) who was discussing her new need for attendant care quite well.
Being a skinny girl most bigger set women are automatically going to come at me with a 'what the hell does she know?' response, well at least the thick chicks that I know. I don't know much about being a heavy set woman in fact the last time that I was heavy I was in diapers.
When you’re born, you’re parents see your future all the time and they never want you to get hurt…right? But is it okay for them to hurt you?
When my mother was young, she was really skinny. But as she got older (and had children), she started to gain some weight and along with the weight came body image issues and low self-esteem.
I was wondering just now as I have wondered many times before, what are people thinking when they look in the mirror before they leave the house? I'm not talking about fashion choices here or a personal fashion police investigation on my part. I just mean, what do people think of themselves in that instant that they're ready to go and take that last glance in the mirror?
It's everywhere; magazines praising curvy women and those women blatantly mocking thin women. It's in overheard conversations, the arrogance of fat people who "live to the fullest" as they say (meaning they eat crap all the time and don't care that they're sacrificing their bodies).
Today group therapy was the hardest it's ever been. Our torture of the day? Looking in a full length mirror in front of everyone and describing what we see.
Oh, God.
When Maira told us what we were going to have to do, I started feeling really anxious and like I was going to throw up. I thought breaking the mirror would be a nice alternative to the scheduled lesson plan.
I am so goddamn full right now it's unbelievable. This 3 snack a day thing has got to go. GOT TO GO. After dinner tonight, I felt sick I was so full. And knowing I had to eat AGAIN was torture.
