jmarieluvsu's blog

In recent years I have come to
this conclusion about love. It's more of a philosophy to be exact. I
have fallen in and out of love so many times at such a young age and I
know that this is not a healthy thing. I let myself love so many people
without first thinking about the consequences that could result from

Hungry for life

Because you refused to feed me

Your love kept me famished

With unsatisfiable cramps

I took too big a bite

And purged

My soul becoming bulimic

My heart now anorexic

And longing to be full

My being craves nutrition

But your pride denies me

We must live for today

Because tomorrow isn't promised

The here and now

Because the future is unsure

What we are

And not what we will be

We must not plan our forever

Because things change

Yet not live off of never

Because things happen for the better

april 17, 2007

4:11 in the am

and I am still up

and still so full

and still so empty

here I go

I love someone whom I cannot have. It's not that I can and I don't
want her. No, I want her and she won't give me her. So I can't have
her.

20 Apr 2007

randomness

Current mood: indescribable

Category: Blogging

*sighs*

There's this feeling that I have in my stomach

and it hurts

Fck

here I am

up all late

with so much shit on my mind

and writing is all i have

Im so in love with someone and I don't know if she is ever going to be right for me

Like, what do you do when potential is not enough?

She has all the potential in the fckin world to make me happy

[[take a deep breath]]
I have to keep telling myself that
and i have to tell myself
[[breath out slowly]]
because if i dont
i feel like i am going to pass out
take this fork
and carve some foreign language
into my heart
because no one knows my sorrows
i can sit and tell you
for days and days

So here's some shit..this time im not going to write it in poem format
or pretty the shit up.. i just feel like writing...