so today is the day. the end of an era that took forever, but the time flew by so fast. today is the offical last day for non-testing seniors. so today is the last day of high school for me. kinda makes me sad, and glad at the same time. i know this has nothing to do with anything, but today is kinda important to me. last time to use this laptop, last time to do anything at school. today is the day of good-byes and invites to my graduation party.
I DON'T CARE!!!! I TRULY DON'T! peace ~jessicA~
so like i said, prom was this weekend and i am wiped out. it was soo much fun though. my group was basically together from noon sat. to 1:30 sunday, so we were together for over twenty four hours. we got hair and makeup down together and that was fun... the guys had to watch. we had a limo! it made us late for prom, but the ride there and back was worth it. especially back. went to the after-prom party, and that kinda blew. last year was sooo much better. the junior class cheaped out. they even got generic pop/soda! there was a mechanical bull, jousting, money thing, and a bungee thing. and movies (make out place). and nate and I have offically slept together. and actually sleep. if interested, later this week/next week, there will be a b4 prom/prom/afterprom slide show on my myspace page. www.myspace.com/jess_lo. later! ~jessicA~
wow, today has been one the worst days ever. first, i had to take the evil AP calculus test, which i know i blew and then the rest of the day occured. i shouldn't even have to come back to school after that torture. i was the only person who took the test and that's because my mother was mean and made me. what a waste of money, and i know that i am going to get in trouble because i'm pretty much sure that i failed it. what a waste of time, money, and energy, which i need by the way. the week before prom i get sick. and this week includes prom, AP calc test, and AP lit test. this is (a lot of cuss words that apparently aren't allowed to a certain extent)! i hate it. my nose burns like a b---h! so yeah, i really don't want to be at school, but i have to be, because they would know if i skipped the rest of the day. so... later! ~jessicA~
I am so sick of the "c" word, cancer. It is used a lot in my household for a very good reason. My dad has it. And so does my aunt. They have had it very a while now and I'm sick of it. I remember the very moment that it stopped being just a word and became reality. My dad was diagnosed with colon cancer July 2002 and i don't remember exactly when my aunt was diagnosed, wait, yeah i do. It was Feb or Jan of 2003. So it happened all at once. Here we are, my family, 4 years later and we are lucky to have them be with us.
It wasn't so lucky though, because my dad's cancer is terminal. It spread to his lungs and we found it Nov. 2004. Now its starting to grow and you can see how it affects my dad. Dad. Once was a strong man, now can barely walk up the stairs without collasping from lack of breath. And i don't know how my aunt is doing because she is barely talking to my mother who doesn't even seem to accept any of this. The "c" word now has become a curse in my family, always wondering when he ends up back into the hospital.
Cancer used to be just a word, something that couldn't affect me. Now, I wish for the days when my dad could be just that, dad. But now, that can't happen. Cancer is here, and unfortunatly, it's here to stay.
It just seemed like yesterday I walked through those high school doors for the first time, and now here I am, a senior with 13 days left. Wow, those four years went by really fast. But it kinda went really slow too. This week especially went extremely slow, i can't believe that it is only weds. It is so crazy, this year disapeared. And here I am, stuck in a class with nothing to do because the college course are almost done.
I am warning you right now. This is not what it seems. It is about how the morons of the world came into existance. There are two main theories about how humans came into the world and in those theories, there must be some explaination for these imbeciles that inhabit the world with rest of us.
I am starting with creationism therory. The whole God-created-us thing. What kind of person would create people, who in their very existance, annoy the crap out of normal people. He created the first two people, according to this theory. If the entire world's population came from these two people, then there must have been some inbreeding. No way around it, to create two people and come out with over 6 billion, there was inbreeding. Was this inbreeding the cause of stupidity in the world? Or was it some other plan of God's? Are the morons of the world punishment for the first sin? Enough about the creationism theory.
Why do I blog? Well, that is a very good question, I have several reasons, each one as good as the last. And this topic is very appropriate considering all of the controversy with myspace.com and blogging in general . I do have a blog on myspace.com and I post blog entries once or twice a week. But why do I do it?
One main reason I personally blog is to remember what is going on in my life. If I record what happened, how I feel about it, and other stuff like that, then I have a record for later in my life. These are the best years of my life and I do not want to forget them. Not like I could, but I would like a backup to my personal memory. And who knows, there might be some detail that I could forget and that could change my view on a subject.
