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I'm thinking that this opinion might be temporary, but, anyway, what the heck?!  I'm in the computer lab right now really procrastinating because I need to work on a scholarship essay.  It always takes this serious mental preparation for me to right those things.  It's hilarious.  I want them to just give me the money.  I don't feel like writing about stuff that I'm not interested in.  Speaking of money, why does college have to cost so much anyway?  I know. I know.  I'm not an idiot, but I'm talking out of emotions here.lol.Work with me.  When I came to school, I thought everything would be socially great and educationally challenging, but, now that I'm used to everything, my classes are super easy.  So, I have this laziness temptation in my face all day.  The worst part is...I WANT TO PROCRASTINATE ALL THE TIME!  It sucks because i'm normally a pretty diligent person, but I hate that I want to do nothing but chill all day.  Finals are in a week, and I don't want to pull out that extra "kick" to study.  I'm surrounded by people who feel the same way.lol. Okay, I finally got it out, so I need to get back to work.  I need to stop complaining and do my job.  Read More »

I have a question.  In class today, a group presented on the differences between feminism and womanism.  What is the difference between the two?  I haven't even heard the term "womanist" until I came to Spelman, so it's kind of strange.  The only definition I got was from a reading, and I still don't know if I agree.  Am I a womanist?  I'm pretty focused and assertive, but I don't think a lot about women's rights and stuff.  We have all kinds of discussions on how men make more than woman, etc. But I'm not sure if I'll ever really think about it when I graduate or outside of the classroom for that matter.  I only think about it in relation to class.  I don't think feminists are weird, but I do feel kind of bad because I could care less about these issues, and they actually effect me.  So...I obviously don't have a clue, and it bothers me a little.  Read More »

I posted a blog earlier entitled "What if There's a Hell?"  And it was one of my more controversial topics, but someone commented about God being fear driven and selfish...etc, etc, etc. But to be completely honest, I disagreed completely.  Initially, I was trying to be politically correct with my blogs or at least to a certain extent.  Everyone has something to say about how wrong Christians are for whatever it is that ticks them off, but can the Christians speak out without being accused of "shoving Jesus down someone's throat?"  Now that I think about it, I should come to expect it.  It comes along with the territory.  It's not popular to be a Christian.  Well, it's not popular to be serious about it anyway because, if it were we, wouldn't be accused of hypocrisy all the time.  No, it's not popular to believe what I believe, but I refuse to shut my mouth about what I believe and what I think.  If I want to write about how much I love Jesus, I'll do it all day long.  If it bothers you, I can't apologize for it.  I'm only here to provoke you to think.lol.  Everyone is here to provoke you to think. But I refuse to walk on eggshells.  Read More »

If I show some booty, will you love me?
Will I finally catch your eye?
If I show some more leg, will you see me?
Really, should I show the whole thigh?
If I change all my clothes, will you hold me?
Maybe we’ll talk through the night.
If I get a new head, will you love me?
Just asking…  
Will I finally be right?
If I paint my whole face, will you hear me?  Read More »

I give up on the whole "human race unity" thing.  It's sad, but humans will always have stupid baises--differences.  The kind of crap that's gone on because of race is incredible.  And think about it, it's about color!  Are you kidding me?  Our kids are smarter than that, and Crayola is all they know until we screw them up.  I'm getting tired of being a "black woman."  No, I don't want to be white or anything else, but isn't it okay just to say that I'm a woman?  Better yet, isn't it okay just to say that I'm human?  But it won't happen.  I realize that.  Humans are too intelligent for that to happen.

People don't really think that African American can be racist, but I beg to differ. This is my first year at Spelman College, and I'm sick of hearing hearing about my blackness and my womaness.  OHHH!  We have a required class for all freshmen(Oh yeah, we're discouraged from using that phrase because we aren't men.lol.), and it's all about people of African descent and women around the world.  We talk about the Atlantic slave trade and other things along those lines, and at first it was pretty interesting.  I learned a lot of history that I didn't know, but if I hear another word about our oppression I'm going to scream!  I absolutely hate it.Yeah this country has dealt with some color and racism issues, but seriously...we have to heal and MOVE ON.  There are people who study this stuff, and, like I said, it's fascinating at first. But if you aren't careful, you'll get sucked in and end up hating white people.  In class it's okay to say "the whites", "the white man", and "them."  And I have to admit, sometimes I say it just because it's fun.  My professor claims that Walt Disney was racist.  Have you noticed how none of the princesses are black?  Do you remember the monkey scene in the jungle book? Man, it's screwing up my childhood memories.   I feel like their trying to make me hate white people, and I refuse to hate any race.  We've suffered a heck of a lot as a race, but we have to forgive and move on.

Okay, so I was talking to my dad a few days ago, and we were in the middle of watching Guess Who's Coming to Dinner. We both had this discussion about interacial relationships, and he claimed that black women had a bigger issue with black men getting with white women.  I said that black men seemed to have a bigger problem with it.  We were going back and forth with our reasons, and then my dad finally stopped me.  He said, "Okay, this whole thing is a stupid issue.  It's just skin color."  At first, I gave the nice American response.  "Yeah, your right."  But it bothers me that we even considered it an "issue."  Are mixed relationship really an accepted thing now, or is everyone just pretending to be okay with it.  Of course people don't get shot for it now, but is there still some sort of tension?  I also wonder how a white parent would respond if one of their children married out of his or her race.  I asked my dad what he would do if I brought home a white man, and he said that he'd question my reasons.  Would I just be trying to prove a point?  I also thought about my own issues.  I say that I don't have an issue with white men, but I'm just not "attracted" to them.  I really wonder how much influence society has on my mindset.  Read More »

I read Ccons003's blog on Saturday, and something really disturbed me about it.  It helped me to realize how much Christians tend to mistreat people of other beliefs.  Yes, we do believe that our way is the right way, and the Bible is our final authority, but, come on, no one has a right to mistreat anyone.  It's not fair that people feel insecure about themselves around Christians when love is supposed to be the number one commandment for anyone who claims Christ.  So, for all you people out there who have been mistreated by Christians, and it turned you off completely from the Christian faith...Hold on, even if it didn't turn you off completely, I apologize for every jerk out there who thought it was his business to condemn you to Hell.  His business should have been loving you as you are.  So, once again...I apologize, and, yeah, I'm a Christian.  Read More »