chellbee's blog

"Go after her, fuck, don't sit there and wait for her to call, go after her because that's what you should do if you love someone, don't wait for them to give you a sign 'cause it might never come, don't let people happen to you, don't let me happen to you, or her, she's not a fucking television show or tornado.  Read More »

Marlene Dietrich once said, " a king, realizing his incompetence, can either delegate or abdicate his duties. A father can do neither. If only his daughters could see the paradox... They would understand the dilemma." In so many ways my father has always been my rock. For outsiders, looking in at our messed up relationship, its fair to say we don't seem close at all.  Read More »

I do not care what car you drive or where you live. If you know someone who knows someone who knows someone. If your clothes are this years cutting edge. If your trust fund is unlimited. If you are A-list B-list or never heard of you list. I only care about the words that flutter from your mind. They are the only thing you truely own. The only thing I will remember you by.  Read More »

Everyone says oh myyy god! She/he said blahblahblah about me, and then spew off on how that person is such a bitch or an asshole. Bottom line, no one wants anyone to talk badly about them, but everyone does it, especially in defense to themselves. It makes people feel better about themselves.  Read More »

"Everything is conditional"

I guess I thought I should explain it, since it's one of the many lines I live by. Or at least try to live by, and people seem to want to know.  Read More »

I've sat and I've thought. And thought. The conclusion I have finally based is, it's because of being scared. The big glass wall goes up and it's to be kept from getting hurt, again and again.   Read More »

Broken bones like broken hearts. Hurt well. 
It's so predictable that the birds will fly south every winter, and then they don't and I wonder why that is. Not so predictable anymore.
I might add. I crafted this big picture of my future. It was so beautiful And, you were in it for such a long time, holding my hand and never letting go. Then you did let go, so I did too.  Read More »

War, sex, religion, politics, literature, family structure, status, school, media, this blog, it’s all an absurd attempt to gain control, control which does not exist. Our entire existence gravitates around an unattainable concept. Society is an endeavor towards control from the day we are born until the day we die. Too many lives are spent wasted on a false truth.            Read More »