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Think of your childhood. Good and bad memories. Try to remember all the things mommy dearest (or someone like a mom) to you always used to tell you.
"Sit up straight!" "Eat your vegetables!" "Go to Bed!"
For those of you withou such great childhood memories, remember what you see in the movies. Mother's mottos, sayings, etc.

There was something weird, wicked, familiar, strange in the air.
It was my boredness, my incapability to keep my mind active in an activity, and the uselessness feeling in my hands as they grabbed on random objects looking for something to do, something to touch, something to move.
Then I logged onto my blog.

Tyler Jacobs: “I think we should do a pop up book, and then turn it into a newspaper.” As he said this his mouth immediately gave in to his humor as his smile widened farther than any mouth could ever have. His face was always one big smile.
“Don’t listen to him,” Erica scoffed. She could help but sneak a smile too. Tyler had that effect on people.

I know what I need to do. I know what I need to do and how to do it. I know the how, the when, the why. But I need the will.

I have never laughed so hard all year. I also have never felt so relieved as I do now. Turning in projects, homework assignments, and take-home tests were all that I have done today, since this weekend I was SWAMPED with homework. Then walking into my fourth hour, I had the best time I've ever had-- talking about something and absolutely nothing.

Seventeen year old little old me is thinking about my life. I try to predict my future, and I'm imagining myself ten years from now. It's uncertain.

What am I going to do for the rest of my life? Who will I be? What school will I go to? What choice will I make?

What to do when you are so figety that you cannot sit still? What to do when you are so bored with the nothingness that you for a second see it as a good idea to do what you would've never normally done in the first place? What to do when you are absoltuely positively frustrated?!?

I'm telling you. . read my prior posts. That's an order. . .Why? Because if you do, then and only then will you understand what I mean when I say that I am three different ladies all in one. And that, my friend, is what really makes me . . well me.