As stated in my previous entry, my mother had a run in with my ex who I still have strong feelings for, none of which are reciprocated on his side/ But I will state this again. All of what happened was my fault. every time we'd break up. he'd take me back, until one day we both had enough. I still wanted him to be happy, and I knew that'd be without me.
For these past few nights I've been praying for a dream,a sign, if I should end my love any which way possible. I had a dream that we walked past each other. I fully recognized him, each time I saw him he was dressed differently. My current boyfriend ditched me and as I walked out, my ex did too. I said a minor thing to him. Like where his car was. He responded with a smile. Like a kind stranger would. But nothing more.
After that dream I realized maybe thats what he would want, for us to be strangers, and nothing more.
Today my current boyfriend told me he has my ex in a class and they workout at the same gym, and its been like that since August. I wouldn't think anything of this normally. But normally, my mother doesn't run into my ex and none of these facts pile up at once.
I've gotten used to my life being pretty coincidental.
I'm at a loss of thoughts and direction.
Guess more dreaming will have to come
