before i begin let me jhuss apologize for not posting any blogs lately. but ok, so hmm, i'd like to start my first blogs topic about love. theres this guy and well ive known him for about two years. from the moment i met him i knew he was gonna be someone important in my life. we've been ' dating ' if you will, on and off since the day we met. i love everything about him. hes actually my first real love hands down and i must admit my feelings grow stronger with each passing day. we've been through some tuff things and have gotten over some like people who care can. lately things have been really tuff and i was in over my head. i began doubting his feelings as well as the whole ' dating ' situation we were involved in.
love can be super complicated and although we are fine now, its scary thinking about the future. you always wanna burry the hurt and hope for the best, but its like your heart fears deeply. but the main reason why im writing this blog is because about a week ago i was thrown into the ocean with news. ' im siging up for the marines ' were his words. this one cut me hella deep. so many emotions were running through my soul i didnt know what to do or think, i was basically numb beyond all recognition.
jhuss thinking about everything is killing me. im going to miss him so much. i truly love him with all my heart. im jhuss afraid hes going to forget about me and when he returns he probably wont love me anymore. maybe it sounds stupid and naive, but i jhuss dont know how im gonna be able to cope with the fact that he wont be around .. x/3
love is so difficult sometimes, but do you think its all worth it ? i mean, what we're fighting for ? . .
