I feel hazy, slow and foggy. Why cannot I think clearly? Wait, I am thinking more clearly than ever before. I am thinking about one thing. I am focused. What is going on? How am I so focused on just one subject matter that seems basic? This is frustrating. Why am I tired? I do not feel animated. I am blah. A constant state of dull. When will this go away? I am not functioning very well at this level. I want to add some sort of pizzazz to me. To my day. to anything. With no feeling high or low on each. I do not like it. I think I might just go to sleep now.
I am always drugged: at night 6 pills the 1 in the morning and in the afternoon another. All to make me “stable” more like to make me livable and practical. I hate taking so many drugs. However, I hate even more the wreck in which I snowball into the second I stop taking them.
It sucks knowing that it is difficult to be loved when I am not on my medicine. It really hurts knowing that those I care about most are hardly there when I am not. It sucks to know that me alone is not good for the world.
It sucks being out of control.
Medicated
By rose796 - Posted on May 6th, 2009
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