I don't know why.
It might be because one of my best friends in CA was telling me how awesome her boyfriend is and I replied, if you talk about him anymore I will kill you and him. It might be the fact that I saw another 21 year old Muslim Pakistani girl's profile, someone I know from high school, and she is engaged to be married and is doing her studies, but she knows who her life partner is and is very happy. It might be because people's facebook status always talk about their loved ones, and how they are going to meet them soon. I see the pictures and it makes me happy, but also quite icky. But then I am not one to hate others happiness, I revel and want to share their joy.
I am not desperate, neither do I expect much.
So I am quite content as long as I know that I am loved and I do know that I am loved. The thing is...that love that is sincere and unconditional, the one that can overcome any obstacle is so hard to come by, and I wish it was not. The wait is beautiful and teaches you things you probably never will learn if you rush into things without really knowing yourself well enough to know who you are and what you stand for.
I want love but I don't want to be loved just for the sake of love.
I am not one to flow with the masses. I am me and if someone loves me, they should know what comes with loving me.
I am not just a face, the heart that beats and the mind that connects and writes these thoughts is a handful so if ever someone falls for me and I for them, I don't think anything will come of it unless they know this me.The me that thinks too much, cares too much and sometimes need to be told to give up because the fight is not worth it.
I really do. I am sure that anyone who gets to know you would feel the same.
Don't give up, and don't sell yourself short. Hold out for the real thing. Don't worry, when you find it you won't be able to ignore it.
When love is real there are no doubts. Just remember that. Doubts indicate that something is missing.
I can say that because i am one those fortunate souls who found her soulmate. That is a pretty crazy thing to me, considering how my life started.
"Consistency is not a human trait" - Maude, from Harold and Maude
In any case I have been almost too busy with everything here on prou and writing random stuff here to care much, except facebook really sucks.
Also, the biggest jolt was that my 25 year old cousin who we all thought would never give in and get married, got married this june and that probably settles it...and she is quite happy and for that I am SO thankful and grateful, but it's funny that she gave in and she changed a lot after getting married, not personality wise but that she had to start wearing stuff she had never worn before for example, heels and make-up
"No, not rich. I am a poor man with money, which is not the same thing." - Gabriel Garcia Marquez, Love in the Time of Cholera Fudge "It's the hard-knock life..."
most women wear heels and make up before they get married, and relax after.
"Consistency is not a human trait" - Maude, from Harold and Maude
how to wear makeup...
Did I tell you I consider myself short, well I am about 5... 2, 5...3.
“You cannot wean away an addict from the drug. It is not possible for me to walk away from Ranjha. If it is our destiny to be together then who, other than God, can change it?”
http://pakistaniat.com/2008/01/01/heer-ranjha-the-story-of-punjabs-first...
who commented ...said to wait, really quiet easy for them, they have at least a kiss, a hug or something else physical to remember and use as their anchor or just the memory of being in a relationship.
I'm bleed it out, digging deeper....trying to throw it away.
“You cannot wean away an addict from the drug. It is not possible for me to walk away from Ranjha. If it is our destiny to be together then who, other than God, can change it?”
http://pakistaniat.com/2008/01/01/heer-ranjha-the-story-of-punjabs-first...