Instigating, hating, intimidating...story of the life lived.
As I try to hold on...I keep spreading the black hate that consumes.
Changing isn’t changing, the circle rounds itself.
The hate comes back to haunt, and as I try to breathe on,
The cycle starts over again.
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This is for me.
It’s time for me to let it all go.
My hopeful heart is dreaming through these shut eyes,
But this is a fantasy, this hopeful optimism is against gravity.
It tries to defy all that is reality.
I’m writing this just so I know, this life’s not mine.
I’ve tried with all my might to make it right,
And when all that is not enough, I'll let life lead me.
Dreams be dreams...reality you can teach me, preach to me,
I'll change me, and you can be the whip that moulds me, we will see...
If you have led me, away and astray, if you've beat me and conquered the soul in me.
*just remember "I've got soul but I'm not a soldier," (I did say I <3 the killers)
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Dreams in the darkness come and go…
Around the bend you find me,
Close my eyes, find ourselves in another time
Pain and sorrow left behind.
A peaceful day, the thing we need
In a space where tranquility reigns,
We find birds in the trees…red, green and blue
And I’m basking in the sun, close to the warmth.
The occasional spring shower wants to rain down on us…
I hold on tight but reality screams,
Burning homes blood and gore, crashing around and above me,
The ominous skies send an omen of bleaker times,
My tearful hopeless eyes…they say goodbye,
To a beautiful time, insanity screams, this can’t be a dream.
As I cry myself to sleep, thinking of what could never be
BOOM!
Time runs out….death comes along, our awaited retreat
