Love, Life, Virginity, College, and whatever else is in here....

Okay. This is my first blog on this website. I'm good at writing or blogging(whatever you wanna call it). So i decided to do this partially for the money at the end of the contest. But another part of me wanted to do this to get my feelings and emotions out. There's so many things I wanna write about but I don't know where to start.... Well I'm going through a break-up. Not really. Me and my ex broke up few months ago but we were still talking as "friends". I officially can't STAND that word now. I don't know what kind of friend he was suppose to be but i DO know that he was generally a bad one. In the beginning, i was fine with still talking to him but he was acting more like an-ex-boyfriend-trying-to-get-back-with-me than a friend. So i told him that i definitely wasn't going to be getting back with him during my high school years because it was high-schoolers that broke us up in the first place. Kind of. But anyways, the life after love was going good until he came back home from college for a visit. Him going to college was another reason why we broke up. Like i was saying, he came home for just about 3 days and wanted to come and see me. I was fine with that. When we did meet up he was all over me like I was his girlfriend again. I WASN'T fine with that. He even tried to kiss me. Now, some of you might be saying "What's so bad about that?". Well, my ex "got around" during high school, if you know what i mean. I was his last girlfriend though. So, he started asking me questions like "All of your feelings are coming back huh?" Now, i didn't want to blandly say no, but i told him to chill out basically. I really didn't need him to come at me with that kind of talk. I was still trying to get OVER him for pete's sake! Him going back to yester-month(lol) wasn't doing me any justice. Plus, the fact that i didn't know who ELSE he had been kissing on around his college campus had me having second thoughts. Even his sister has clued me in on what he's been up to. She hasn't ratted him out really, she just told me, and i quote, "I'm just glad that yall are friends right now. Do you get my code?"......End Quote. What else would that mean? So I've tried to gravitate away from him but he just keeps coming back. I was actually going to write him a letter about his immaturity and foolishness and how it will get him nowhere but I won't judge him like that. But if he tries to talk to me ONE more time about how I treat him bad and how it seems like i don't care about him anymore, I WILL explode. Because he still thinks i have no clue about him and his "dirty deeds". I guess i'll just have to let him grow up and see that one day he will get tired of the girls in college that give "it" up on sight and start looking for me or someone who is pretty damn close. And just to give you a little of my personality: I'm 17(18 in April), intelligent(not the intelligence that the most ignorant people pretend to have, the real kind.), and i'm VIRGIN! That's an amazing feature now-a-days. This boy was my first boyfriend. I am a goody-two-shoes. He was a bully/clown with everyone because he is/was HUGE for a senior. But i was pretty mean too and I was the only person that didn't scream when he said "Boo!" lol. He was a boyfriend to an uncountable amount of girls and I was single for my whole life until him. And I'm still a virgin after a boy like that lol. Yea, I wasn't one of THOSE kinds of girls that have sex with an "experienced' boy just because. I TOLD you i was intelligent lol. Oh and we're both African-Americans. I guess you can leave comments about this or just read it for entertainment but i love any kind of feedback. Need a specific question? What is your impression of me after reading this blog?