Love, before you say it, consider its meaning.

Sometimes I feel as though I could say “I love you” but I refrain. What is there to accomplish from those three words? Is it chaos and confusion? I couldn’t well say those words and walk away now could I? My heartstrings are being tugged on, or is it just my mind? How could I sort out all of these things without knowing which is talking… my heart or head? I close my eyes wishing you were here to stroke my hair but yet I refuse to say yes. Why is that so? Is my heart stopping me or my head? Why do these emotions fill inside me? I wish it were a dream, a nightmare I’ll soon awake. I don’t know how to deal with these things. Sometimes I feel as though I could say “I love you” but I refrain. I use to think that you couldn’t be all for me but now I cant be so sure. Is all I need is a caring hand, someone’s unconditional love or do I need more? Do I need someone to pick me up when I feel I can go no more? Or is that something I must do for myself? I confuse fiction and reality. Is Cinderella just a tale? I look for prince charming but does he even exist? Sometimes I feel as though I could say “I love you” but I refrain. Is it because you’re not the one? Why do I think of these things? I’m only sixteen. It’s the fairy tales I swear… I want to be rescued. But do things like that really happen in the real world? Am I waiting for something that will never come? Sometimes I feel as though I could say “I love you” but I refrain. I hate to say the words and leave you. I know I can’t stay. You care about me and I’ll never forget. We’ll share these moments and I’ll forever remember. But you are not the one to rescue me and I cant say I wish you could. Because in my heart I know there is someone else for me just like there is someone else for you. For now I’ll be here with you. Standing beside you, holding your hand while you stroke my hair. But eventually it will end but I will never forget the way you showed you cared. Sometimes I feel as though I could say “I love you” but I refrain.