epiphanies

I recently had an epiphany. My grandfather, a man I was very close to, passed away a few weeks ago. Since then, my mindset has completely changed. I have always been known for being safe, for planning, for thinking things through, and for being somewhat boring. I've always thought of life as long, with time for everything. I have not necessarily wasted my time, but I've spent too much time worrying about what might happen, rather than enjoying myself and taking the risk.
I had never considered my grandpa to be mortal, rather a man among mortals. I've seen him as superhuman and permanent. He's lived through so much that would kill a normal person I just kind of decided that he must be incapable of death. It is no surprise then, that it came as a great shock to me to hear of his death. Needless to say, I was devastated and not thinking clearly. In the past couple weeks, I have been thinking about him and the concepts of life and death a lot and have come to the realization that life is fleeting. You never know which day will be your last, only that someday will be your last. I have thus resolved to start getting the most out of everyday. I will spend more time doing things that I enjoy and less time worrying about all the possible consequences.