The tides come and go...you just have to find yours and catch it.

Everybody at some point in their life will experience senior year. I'm doing my time right now. I knew it was going to be like this, but I just didn't realize how hard it was going to hit me when I wanted to go to sleep or even hang out with my friends. I'm involved in a lot of activities and clubs and I'm finding it hard these days to even find time to eat! Along with all this stress comes the deadlines of scholarships and applying to college. I already have my college picked out, but I'm still not very sure about what I want to do or be. There are so many scholarships out there and all you have to do is try, but it doesn't seem so easy when you have to write all these essays and get recommendations and fill out all these other forms to go with it....and doing like 5 of them at a time. I don't come from a wealthy family so I'm basically obligated to do this. I'm just lucky that I have a strong academic background and community service/volunterism resume to go with it. So with all the stress of going to my normal activities and completing these scholarships you have to add on the homework...physics, English...seriously, are you kidding me?! I just got done doing a research paper (don't ask me how that went) and now it's off to more writing! And don't even get me started with the physics...that blows my mind. And then on Tuesdays and Thursdays I'm enrolled in concurrent enrollment at our community college so I'm doing double things. But somehow in this crazy mess I'm managing and I don't really know how. Each day I wake up waiting for that day to be over so I can move onto the next. So far it's working. I know college probably won't be that much easier, but right now I just want to get done with this year. Something about college just seems so promising...maybe it's the debt. HA. Now there's something. Paying that much for an education? Give me a break. Which that brings me back to what I'm doing right now...scholarships. I NEED SO MANY OF THEM! I don't want to start my life out with debt...but that's beginning to look like how it's going to turn out. Usually Sundays are the days that I sit down and work on scholarships, but for some odd reason I managed to get a SATURDAY off and decided that I have nothing else better to do than that. It's 5 o'clock right now which means I've been sitting here for almost 4 hours...and I haven't really gotten anywhere. I'm sure there are many more seniors out there that feel my pain, and probably even some college students too. But somehow we're all making it...and it really doesn't make sense.