sooooo.. i just finished watching into the wild for the second time, and well, let's just say i feel emotionally purged right now. i'm sitting on my couch staring at the wall in front of me and i can't seem to get up. seriously. i feel inspired. i feel guilty. i feel sad. i feel uplifted. i feel i want to make a change now, but i don't know where to start.
and maybe this is something we all face. we all want to make a change, but sometimes we don't know what kind of change we want to make. in ourselves? in others? in the environment? in our relationships? our jobs? it's overwhelming because we all want to do good, but then there is so much good that is needed that we fall into routines because we don't know where to begin. we think it, but we don't act upon it.
i clearly know i am solely speaking for myself and my experiences and thoughts and maybe some of you out there are starting clubs and organizations and making those changes we all want to. i commend you. i just find we are over-consumed in our own little lives, our own little spills, our own little worlds that we fail to look up and see what is really important: making a difference where a change and new light is needed.
i still haven't moved and i don't plan to move for awhile. i want to sit in silence and try to put my scattered brain back into one amorphous unit and start to think about the change i can make to contribute to a better life for the people around me. i only hope you will do the same.
I'm always excited to hear this type of thinking; it is people like you who begin to make the changes we all want/should be making! Congrats at taking the first step, which is, of course, using your brain and thinking about how we should be living!
Start small...I know that sounds trite, but seriously, the more little things you begin to change, the easier the big changes start to appear, and before you know it, you are beginning to make those big changes too. Start by riding your bike everywhere, or peeing outside whenever possible, or not showering as much, or taking school notes on the back of scrap paper...little changes like that will inspire you to make bigger changes.
Don't be a purist, however. Everyone slips back into old habits from time to time; that is part of the learning process, the growth, the joy of being human. There is no need to feel guilty when you don't live up to your expectations; instead, praise yourself every time you do! It is easier to make changes when you are being kind to yourself, not laying a guilt trip for yourself.
Love ya,
Carrot
"i just find we are over-consumed in our own little lives, our own little spills, our own little worlds that we fail to look up and see what is really important: making a difference where a change and new light is needed."
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It's the little things that make big things... Take a thousand little things, and look at them all at once.. you've got a big thing... You are ready for the little things... The tiny wee little things...
They are all connected to the biggest things... I.E.: Last week I was rummaging through tool boxes for a specific tool... I found a bottle of multivitamins that had spilled in the bottom of one of the boxes... Trash now... Two pills were partially stripped of their shiny coatings, in a 1/64" thick loss over a third of each pill, in a pattern... Obviously a microscopic creature had made its home on the pill... Probably thousands of little critters on each pill.. maybe millions..? Life on the pills... Two little worlds...
I have no right to destroy their little world, just because it's in my way, and of no use to me, so I tossed the two infected pills at the base of the lilac bush... The excess moisture, and rich earth, will give those what ever they are colonies a big boost in evolution, compared to what my dry basement provided... I'll watch for them, and should I ever happen to find their evolved little culture, I'll give them some diced fruit, and a fresh multi-vitamin pill...
Be kind to the little life, and the big life will be kind right back...
Life is watching us very closely whether we know it or not.. almost too closely.. even closer than "santa claus".. so be good for goodness sake...
In a forum, I had accidentally talked myself in to a little depression, in culminating a barrage of flame wars... I finished my post to the young lady, "I needs a hug"... A couple seconds later, a large fly zooms through the doorway as fast as a fly can fly, as if it was a bug on a mission, and lands right in the middle of the computer screen... I moves a finger toward it.. It doesn't fear me.. Immediately it walks toward my fingertip, and leans in tight to my finger, and rubs its head against to my finger three times, just like an affectionate kitten does to your ankle, then flew away... Life gave me the hug I asked for, the only way it could that moment... A little hug, but never the less, a hug... Proof something big is watching me, and is on my side...
On the other hand, the creature whose cells are universes permitted me to drive itself for a minute, upon my request... I convinced it that it would be a fun learning experience sensing me drive itself... I made a little course adjustment.. examined the changes and ramifications, then set things almost back as they were...
I employ my very large fiend to help me deal with attacking remote viewers, and to assist me with hands-on healings...
In reading your post I sense that you are ready for anything... How may I be of assistance your majesty?..
hey thanks for the response! i really like your fly story... i bet we can all experience something like that everyday if we just open our eyes. thanks for the intense post and i'm glad you were able to relate. that makes me happy.
I'm glad other people are so compassionate that they wouldn't want a tiny little microbe on a vitamin to die...or that they would be willing to accept a hug from a fly! So many of us wouldn't recognize that as a hug, or the microbes as a tiny little society all their own!
I'm glad you do! Keep up the compassion brother!
Love ya,
Carrot