k-i-v-a-christ's blog

I try hard not to think about the pain in my heart
Try hard not to think how it’s tearing me apart
It’s making me feel lost
Why did I stray
Why didn’t I stay, put
In one place,
One day
One way
Or another
I knew I was a goner
The day I left
The day I lied
Began the day I would surely die
In spirit
In grace
Now I have to hide my face  Read More »

my real name is Khrystianna, i am 19 yrs old and was born aug 13, 1989. i am a fornicated child meaning my parents conceived me out of marriage. my mother is catholic and my father agnostic, my mother had wanted to call me Loisa like my older brother Luis, but God had sent her a dream stating that my name would and is Khrystianna (cri-sti-a-na) which is 'Christian/Christ Follower' in spanish.  Read More »

Drew looks at me
I fake a smile so he won't see (all my pain)
that I want and I need (his love and)
everything that we should be (our old love)

I'll bet he's great (his new love)
That guy he talks about
And he's got everything
That I have to live without

Drew talks to me
I laugh 'cause it's just so funny (remembering our times of goofing off)
I can't even see  Read More »

THE DIFFERENCE

Life takes a toll when you live what you’re not,
Trying to be something else causes you to rot in,
You own hell, can’t tell, the real from the fake,
One way out but two roads to take.
How can you see but you’re blinded in truth
Can’t see what is real cause you lost all that you
Had from within, why’d you turn to sin?
To destroy who you were in the beginning  Read More »

so i come from a street of trying to be sweet, an innocent w/ that skip in my beat but i couldn't hide behind that mask of my past that woulnd't even last cuz i was scared of the truth truth is of my biz that wasn't even smart sometimes i ain't to sure really where to start but i guess if i wanna get to beginning guess that i better start get to remembering that there was a time i even felt comple  Read More »

Love at first sight  Read More »

my real name is Khrystianna, i am 19 yrs old and was born aug 13, 1989. i am a fornicated child meaning my parents conceived me out of marriage. my mother is catholic and my father agnostic, my mother had wanted to call me Loisa like my older brother Luis, but God had sent her a dream stating that my name would and is Khrystianna (cri-sti-a-na) which is 'Christian/Christ Follower' in spanish.  Read More »

so i come from a street of trying to be sweet,
an innocent w/ that skip in my beat
but i couldn't hide behind that mask of my past
that woulnd't even last cuz i was scared of the truth
truth is of my biz that wasn't even smart
sometimes i ain't to sure really where to start
but i guess if i wanna get to beginning
guess that i better start get to remembering  Read More »