My senses are failing

Is this what it's like,
A dream lacking serenity?

Life, is floating fast away.
But I look, your head is turned away.

So I guess this is where I lie

where the days are endless and the nights, they just don't belong

My heart held, in the palm of your hand, I'm dreaming a reality

To hate everything I love and I am not another stupid
Little teenage f*cking whore

To take this handgun to my eyes

Spit bullets with my pen

I'll bite your lip so f*cking hard

And watch the innocence just drip,

You know that you are worthless
And I am better than... you princess
I'm dressed to thrill and I won't go quietly

You're addicted to the drug of lust but

I said that you were my first, and you weren't even close

I'll be your cheap novelty

I won't forget the day that, that I came to
And I started thinking that there's more,

I tell myself this pain is the pain I love
As I swallow the pills of happiness,

I'm left with broken dreams and memories,

My stainless heart that never speaks, reads like a story never sold,

I look in my shattered mirror, pieces of me is all I see

I'm just blending to waste away

A bitter ending from a slow decay So here's your kiss goodbye

So what now?