Realization...

I've realized a lot at such a young age. When i was four i learned that not all daddies are nice to mommies. Few years later i learned that sickness takes away the ones closest to you, and it has no other feelings other than death. At age 14 i understood that sudden death can strike well...suddenly. My junior year of high school things didn't come east as the other years had. I learned what i real man is and exactly how every girl should be treated. At 16 i learned what the real definition of love was. The feeling, the tingling, the invincible feeling. Reality strikes. It can get torn away by that sudden death. Ripped away like an open flesh wound. Gone. Not there. Your safety net with a gaping hole, the floating device; deflated.
This makes you weak. Strips you of your being. No energy. Completly numb. Emotionless. Hand in the towel. Lock yourself in a room. No world, no people, just you. Just you to rething everything. Every second, every minute, every noise, movement, sound. Draining, exhaustion. Mental and Physical exhaustion.
GET UP!!! Do you think that sitting around makes you stronger? Does that make you better? Sure it's easier. But is it suppsed to be? No, it's not. It's supposed to be hard. Really hard. You're supposed to get knocked on you butt. Just so you can learn to get back up. Is it right, no. is it fair, probably not. No one promised you sunny days with no gray skies or rain. Maybe now it's time for everyone to REALIZE that life is full of struggles, heart ache, death, defiance, faith, terrible things. They are all put ther for us to overcome them, NOT to pin us down. I've come to the REALIZATION that we can't wait for someone or something else to make us strong again. WE have to do it OURSELVES! Step by step. No jumps, or leaps, or bounds. You have to crawl before you can walk, and you have to walk before you can run. You tige to get. You have to live in order to learn. All these things have one thing in common. YOU! Maybe YOU need to come to that REALIZATION.