Last year I wrote on a blog on my anticipation towards my senior year and now here is my second part, my conclusion. In four days I will be graduating from my final year if high school and I have no idea how to feel about it. Now that I look back on it, it all went by so quickly. The day that i thought would never come, is right around the corner. I'm anxious, nervous, happy all at the same time. What is in store for me? I really I knew....or maybe I dont. Life IS what you make of it. this year has been so wild for me. I've learned I am stronger than I once thought. To stand up for my morals, think before I act, and to be open for what comes my way. Some of the things I did this year, I looks back on and just ask myself "did i really do that?". I know i should not regret anything; Everything happens for a reason, and believe me, I could not be happier than I am now. I just wonder what I was thinking when I did that.
I do have plans to go to community college after I graduate and hopefully I find a job within the next week so I can start paying for my car and have money of my own. I'm still confused on whether to study education or maketing but I still have a few years to do.
But anyways back to the subject at hand. I got to thinking..." am I going to cry I graduation?" Probably not, the next day I have to go back to school and see all those people again. But then another questions popped up. What if i cry not because I'm going to miss a few people, what if i cry because I'm scared? Its a scary thing realizing that after 4 years of having to follow rules and going to detention and having the bell be your ruler what am I going to do after? Am i really prepared for classes where the teacher will never know your name? For having to manage my own time? I honestly don't know but I guess we'll see what happens when that time comes.
