TheMumblingYears (9:39:57 PM): i mean with you and jada, have you started talking?
icmycorpse (9:40:09 PM): not really
TheMumblingYears (9:40:28 PM): i'm sorry :[
icmycorpse (9:40:36 PM): oh well
icmycorpse (9:41:28 PM): i have done what i can she jus simply doesnt love me anymore and i can tell so there jus isnt anything left for me to do
TheMumblingYears (9:42:08 PM): :[
icmycorpse (9:43:12 PM): im thinkin of kinda disappearin for a while so she can jus go along with her life im tired of holding her back
TheMumblingYears (9:44:40 PM): thats a depressing thing to say nick. I don't think you could ever be holding anyone back. I think actually, you push people forward.
icmycorpse (9:44:56 PM): not her
icmycorpse (9:47:21 PM): im not sure i have done much of anything for her really
TheMumblingYears (9:48:16 PM): you loved her. thats probably the greatest gift ever
icmycorpse (9:48:45 PM): not now days love isnt enough for anything
TheMumblingYears (9:49:23 PM): thats really sad nick. you can't believe that love does nothing.
icmycorpse (9:50:04 PM): it may do something if both love eachother but it is jus a form of pain if only one loves the other
icmycorpse (9:50:12 PM): its really nothing
TheMumblingYears (9:51:06 PM): love can never be nothing. one way direction or not.
icmycorpse (9:51:26 PM): its something but it is nothing good
icmycorpse (9:51:43 PM): its everything you want to jus forget about
TheMumblingYears (9:52:36 PM): oh how I wish I could make you feel better nick. but i have to say, I can't believe that loving a person can ever be wrong. even if it causes a lot of pain.
icmycorpse (9:52:57 PM): i didnt say it was wrong
TheMumblingYears (9:53:22 PM): i know. but you said its nothing good. love is always good
TheMumblingYears (9:53:32 PM): good or bad. if that makes sense?
icmycorpse (9:54:11 PM): its not good for you its pain its unhealthy
TheMumblingYears (9:54:33 PM): pain makes you stronger.
icmycorpse (9:55:24 PM): healing from the pain makes you stronger
TheMumblingYears (9:56:20 PM): yeah. so love is good for you, inadverdently.
icmycorpse (9:56:58 PM): well if you dont heal from the pain you dont get stronger
TheMumblingYears (9:57:11 PM): i don't believe that no one heals.
TheMumblingYears (9:57:40 PM): trust me. If I can get through one Justin Evans. me being horrible at getting over things. than you can get through anything <3
icmycorpse (9:58:01 PM): ya
icmycorpse (9:58:04 PM): iono
icmycorpse (9:58:07 PM): its what ever
TheMumblingYears (9:58:36 PM): I love you nick. you still mean a lot to me. and I know that you'll be okay. you have to be. or i'll beat you up :]
icmycorpse (9:58:51 PM): i know i will
icmycorpse (9:59:04 PM): i jus dont really care honestly
TheMumblingYears (9:59:12 PM): alright.
icmycorpse (9:59:57 PM): i dont really care what happens to me anymore i jus want jada to be happy
TheMumblingYears (10:00:14 PM): you're a really beautiful person nick
icmycorpse (10:01:47 PM): i may be gone for a while after tomorrow im not sure how long
TheMumblingYears (10:02:00 PM): I'm sorry :[ but I understand
icmycorpse (10:03:12 PM): i just need to settle my feet ive lost everything pretty much to jada and i need to get my life back in track and i dont know how long that is going to take
TheMumblingYears (10:03:24 PM): take as long as you need <3
icmycorpse (10:03:34 PM): ya
icmycorpse (10:05:44 PM): iono you have my number probably i dont know if ill have my phone on but if you wanna try to text me or something you are more than welcome to
TheMumblingYears (10:06:07 PM): I will to check up on you.
icmycorpse (10:06:18 PM): k
TheMumblingYears (10:08:39 PM): i hope you feel better soon <3
icmycorpse (10:12:31 PM): me too
This, along with some random music I downloaded that just happened to play on shuffle (thanks zune :/) has got me in a rotten mood. Well, I guess I feel rotten when love comes up, because its probably the most selfish wish I ever had. And I have rotten luck with men. I should get in the habit of calling them men I guess, since I'm getting older by the second. My current relationship, is already self-defeating, with all the drama that came with it. (see blog: I Hope She Is a Beautiful Fool). I guess I'm a hypocrite for telling people not to put much hope in a teenage relationship, when I do it all the time. Well, at least this time, I have a lack of hope for this boy. I guess because I never pictured him there, I can't see it going very very very far. Guess I'm not psychic. I seem to guess a lot about love and relationships. Uncertainty, my worst vice. I'm always unsure of myself, especially when it comes to this.
I think we need to learn to love ourselves before we can love anyone else strong enough to make a relationship work. its hard tho when being a teenager you feel so lost in the world at times, I know I sure did at least, thats what hurt my relationships I suppose.
Yes. Needing love is different from wanting it. If we "need" love, then love is really the last thing we need.
Love finds you when you least expect it....
i found my soulmate in the ER.lol
so don't look for it, it will find you like a slap in the face, and you'll just know...
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Just give it time. You'll heal, eventually.
I agree with the last user. Once you quit looking, you'll find what you need. I didn't even want to meet my husband, but I did and have been in love ever since. :)
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I think love is given a little too much credit for what it is. Romantic love, that is. Love for family, friends, hobbies, and most importantly, yourself, is crucial to a successful relationship...as I have been advised many times, you can't go searching for the right person, you must be the right person. Romantic love is believed to be vital to hapiness, especially by the younger population (which are even less likely to be ready for love). I think this is sooo untrue! Find happiness without someone there to lean on; that will make you a stronger, more independent, and more loveable person. Then, a deeper, truer love may come to you.