Someone Else’s Dream
Why are we always wanting more? It is purely because we strive for excellence or are we just spoiled brats who will never be satisfied? I am not sure I know where I stand. What I do know it that no matter how much we have-love, a home, health, a happy family, caring friends-it doesn't seem to be enough, even for the most grateful person. There will always be someone who has less than you and always someone who has more. As simple as this sounds, it appears to be one of the most difficult concepts to remember and remind ourselves.
Just recently I met someone who told me I would grow "bored of California's perfect weather". I strongly disagreed and not for the sake of disagreeing, but because I managed to realize at that brief moment that that is exactly who I am not. I want to catch those moments and analyze them...and then grow from them. I find it impossible to feel boredom in this world.
The moments of near jealousy that I feel while living a life in Hollywood, surrounded by money and fame, have been dismissed. I have not allowed that emotion in my body for quite some time. I am living how I want, doing what I am passionate about and I am in control of my dreams and future. My path is my own. I will only be competitive with myself. Yet, I will certainly allow what other people do and say to effect me, but only the positive people and words. If anything negative finds its way in, it will simply be a learning experience for me and hopefully that is mirrored on the opposing side.
If I had enough money to survive comfortably forever, even if I were to grow sick or if there was a tragic emergency with my family...I would travel. I would just go. If I had children or grandchildren I would return often or bring them along, but I would love to just go and be free. I am far from tasting that sense of liberation I can definitely smell it.
But the truth is, none of that needs to happen because I believe that nothing matters without health and love. If you have that, you are lucky. There are people in this world who are craving to obtain feelings of love, support, comfort and touch from loved ones. I suspect this is not a pleasurable dream because it can be out of your control. To them, I am living in their unattainable dream and I didn't even realize until I wrote those words. Are we are all walking around living someone else's dream?
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