Why am I always the fool in relationships? Every single relationship I've been in has ended terribly with me always being the one getting hurt.
My first serious relationship was amazing to say the least, I really can honestly say that's the moment I knew what love was, I still love him and I know that I always will. But anyways...we were forced to break up because he's Muslim and his parents found out. I was okay then, but a little bit after that he had a new girl friend, one that I've never liked. I was deleted from his life. Then, a few weeks ago he told me he still loved me but that he wasn't going to break up with his g/f to be back with me. It really hurt me because I've always had a rule that I will never date the same guy twice, but with him I would.
My friend Jordan was over yesterday, yes friend...we never dated. But we have messed around and he still made me feel like an idiot...we never even kissed and the next day he never said anything to me...yeah I totally felt like "that girl"
Then...last night my friend Alex was over and my ex, Tony, is his best friend. Well, Alex and I were talking, being really honest and I already knew that he liked me when Tony and I started going out, but then I heard what I didn't know. Apparently Tony never really liked me, he just went out with me because he knew that I liked him. Alright that made me pretty pissed considering he was the one that was always making the first move and telling me how much he liked me, but this was even worse...when we first started going out I told him I wanted our first kiss to be in the rain (I'm a romantic what can I say) well he told his most recent girlfriend the exact same thing.
Then there/s Luke, the guy who was nothing but cheap talk. All he did was say the right things and I was his, but he never meant it. ( I won't go into detail here since there was previously an entire blog devoted to him)
What I don't understand is why am I always the sucker? Why do guys feel like it's okay to just hurt me? It's not okay, and what's worse is I find a guy who genuinely cares about me, but neither of us want to be in a relationship.
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Relationships take a lot of effort to work. While I'm not sure what age you are, my guess would be high school age to early twenties. It sounds to me like you've been playing with boys and not men. What you have are experiences to help you release what you want in a man. Not only that, Mr. Right will come when you least expect it.
-Fortuna
Yes they do take a lot of effort, something most people don't put into them. I'm 18, and the guys mentioned are all different ages, 2 are younger, one is my age, and one is much older. It's odd because the person mentioned at the end, the one that really does care, is the one that made me realize I don't want to be in a relationship right now. I'm just sick of thinking that I'm in a decent relationship only to find out later that it meant nothing to them and everything to me.
Good words Fortuna!
I would have to say leave the boys alone till your schooling is done and your ready for a serious relationship. This will help you stop making it easy for the boys to manipulate and trick you, thus closing off the door to be hurt this way.
good luck
~T
All truths are easy to understand once discovered; The point is to discover them ~Galileo
I know that I need to. Thank you guys for the advice, trust me I always appreciate any advice I can get. I'll openly admit that I'm a very insecure person, so when a guy likes me I kinda jump at the chance which is why it's hard for me to think about not being in a relationship.
I have dated alot of idiots. I had to go through about 8 or 9 people to find the right one. Just forcus on yourself. Sounds like you wear your heart on your sleeve like I do. Love comes most when you least expect it. You might have to go through some dickheads to get to the right one but the wait will be worth it. Like I said before focus on yourself.
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haha thanks dani I should've known I could count on you to give me that female perspective and put it bluntly. I totally wear my heart on my sleeve and I just don't know how to fix that. I hope that all of you guys are right and that it does get better.
It is hard to fix but once one door closes another opens. Try to sort through qualities you like in a guy and qualities you don't. write a list. Once you meet someone get to know them then if they have more qualities you don't like then say goodbye. It is easy if you change the way your mind is. I used to do that and realized I could fix it by finding flaws. I know it sounds weird but it worked. lol. You will also change as you get older. Trust me it does get better. Sometimes it feels like there is no hope, but you have to try to stay positive. :)
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hey that's a really good idea I should try it...and I hope it gets better as I get older...otherwise I'm going to be looking into nunnery...haha