Dear Fish:
Still remember this watch? A watch, which is not only a promise, it is our agape.Currently, The only promise which I can accomplish for u. Whilom I was a person who have been some extraordinarily arrogant. All the while I have always thought of myself as a very great boyfriend. This is so shallow. Often got deluded by peacockery.
I was a unfaithful person who always broke my promises in the fact. I was completely addlepated which didn’t appreciate of my own mistake. Also u forgives me reticently again and again. I had some faults but I guess my biggest one was loving you too much.
Ur last letter wrote for me was still close which my courage to continue to say “ I can not do it” until this moment. Perhaps flabbiness juz snuck up on me. I did not hate you from beginning to end.
Even though I have not gone to the church, but I pray three times a day. After wake up, before working, before sleep. I become more Humility pre-heartedness than before.
Currently I do not open up for anybody who can not instill theiradvice. Unconsciously I am returning to the road as autistic boy. Still face to the burden and trouble which I want to solve them by my
self. Presently my mine is gone away. Expressly I appreciate confuses which I can not face the facts or do not want to accept this facts?
Currently, I have no friends; darkness is my only companion who would dance and talk to me. Promise myself no contact. My undefined situation may even involve the contradictory, both bad and happy
when guys call me. I appreciate my friends that really do care about me. Depress do not let me pick up my phone. I always lie and tell myself. I'm engaged. I would evade them when they're more care about me. On the other hand, I miss them when they do not care about me anymore. I was so goofy and humble.
But I am certain you do not think about me at all.
I appreciate that you are very unhappy during theses days. The main reason you become unhappy and depress is b/s our problem or any other things? (no more concern). Previous my unhappy and jealousy would folo ur happy. Currently my melancholy and heartache would folo ur unhappy.
Plz do not unhappy any more .giggle..xdddddd
I will arrive to my employee parking lot early everyday. It's around 20 minutes long and I am actually going to pray and talk to ur giraffe in my car. Promise u which takes care about ur giraffe. It is the best listener who will never give me disagreeable felling. I honestly think you want a guy who is a proper and the center of attention, which I totally am not. I think I spend several times a day thinking about you beautiful smile and personality. And you might be a little right that I was into you for your fantastic body, but that was only at the beginning of our relationship. It might come off as really shallow, but I think physical attraction is a large part of dating and being someone. But I definitely wouldn't have been going out with you for 5 mos just for your body. It might have been one of the reasons why I started dating you, but then I found out you was a really nice, sweet girl, really nice hearted, and really spunky.
In darkness, I still live with a wall. Darkness has the silence of peace that any other world can not offer. If someone asked me: "are u happy?" my answer is" unhappy ."
I am totally clueless b/c you are the girl that ive been in love with and I know for a fact that you loves me too, you appreciate it all but just wants to be friends for now.
I was always goofy round you and nervous where I liked you so much.
I still need more time xddddddddd..
Remember be happy!!!!!
Can you translate this for me? I feel like I'm reading from some sort of code.
seriously confused. but i think i understand parts of it. but still majorly lost. like reading written ASL. seriously.
It sounds like you took this from a book or something. It is very codeish. I agree.