I'm having a midlife crisis at the age of 18! I don't even know if that's possible, but that's how I'm feeling right now. This summer has been, point blank HORRIBLE!!! I don't know what's wrong with me. I know I'm scared about how my life is going to change once my friends and I go to college, but is that what's really causing me to CRY? Let me give you an idea about how much I cry, Since this week, the last time I cried was a year an a half ago. I mean I cried TWO tears, when I shattered my wrist. However this week i've cried THREE time THREE!!! in ONE week. That's THREE out of seven days!!
I don't know what's wrong. The first time I cried, because I missed my friends, after 2 days of seperation. The next time I cried was when I again didn't see my friends for ONE day. Today I cried because the people I was with were being jerks. They were calling my dance horrible, and wouldn't pay attention. They just goofed off. I mean they give respect to eachother when they teach their dances, and they've been doing it a lot longer then I. The FIRST time I do my own dance, they make fun of it, and just point blank are extremely rude. They're supposed to be High School graduates, yet around me they act like middle schoolers. I mean I KNOW they don't like me. B ut they don't have to be so forward about it. I don't do anything to them, but give them my due respect, bv giving them their space, and not trying to be their friend. Not that I want to be their friend, because they all talk about eachother behind their back. These dancers have a million dances because they're better, but tehy don't WORK as hard as I do. I wanted a Dance SO badly, and I didn't get it, even though I worked SO hard, and felt like I was up to par with the others.
I don't know if all this pent up dance frustration is why I'm crying all the time. I mean I like to think that I'm not because I've delt with it for so long, and to just lose it in the last couple of days, seems pointless. I mean today I felt like a child being picked on by the other kids, and I had to go run to the teacher to get them to stop. Really, almost a college student, and i'm running to the TEACHER to save me? Come on? but these people are SO hurtful, that I don't know what else to do! If I had the courage to speak my mind, they would have just laughed at me and tell me to get over it.
It all started with the accident, so I think this "senior" dancer thing has gotten me extremly STRESSED! So I think it's a build up on that. But the other day, I tried to convince myself that I shouldn't bother seeing my friends. First off, I thought that I didn't want to be a "sour puss" around them. I ddin't want to bring down their day. Then i thought that it would make things better to just never see them again, because it would make the pain less easier. I'm at a loss because I want to see my friends, but then I feel like i'm depending on them too much, when were going to different colleges. AGHHH This is all so confusing and poorly written. In short, I've been crying a lot lately, and I don't know why I can't stop. Why am I all of a sudden all (excuse the term) EMO? Its not me, or maybe it is and I just didn't kknow it? I guess i've been avoiding too much pain over the years. I need to find happiness, but am at a loss to where it is.
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First, you are not having a midlife crisis, you are being a teenager. 18 will be a difficult, you are not a child anymore and you are not quite an an adult. Second and most important if people do not want to be friends with you do not worry about it. Go out and find the people that do want to be friends, trust me they are out there.
And the last thing you need to remember is to dance to your own tune and do not worry what others think.
And the last thing you need to remember is to dance to your own tune and do not worry what others think.
Right on! That is really important, I used to dance until this year, and I was criticized A LOT! But I never allowed myself to lose sight of why I loved to do it in the first place.
"Why do you fear what is nothing more than you? Do you not know that you could never fail?"
umm yeah, always get self-concious when i'm getting compared. But I still keep dancing. I only dance for me when I can improbv, or when I really know the dance. I'm working on it. Yeah again, dance is coming to a closed, and hopefully with it my self-conciousness.
umm yeah, always get self-concious when i'm getting compared. But I still keep dancing. I only dance for me when I can improbv, or when I really know the dance. I'm working on it. Yeah again, dance is coming to a closed, and hopefully with it my self-conciousness.
Yeah I know, that's just me using a hpyerbole, or overexagerating! I want to let go of being "accepted" by them but seem to be having trouble, since dance is my life. But now that its coming to a close it will be easier. I hope so, at least.
You're making me really scared of when I turn 18 now...I'm sure that when you go to college you will make many friends, since it sounds like you are going to dance? You will definably meet tons of new people who share the same passion as you do. Sometimes I get really worried about things (my last blog was about taking the ACT) but then after just relaxing and thinking for awhile I realized that there is a purpose in all of that stuff. Maybe for you those kids being mean was just a way of showing you who not to be when you go to school? Be the bigger person and always remember your experiences. <3
"Why do you fear what is nothing more than you? Do you not know that you could never fail?"
More like first life crisis:)
SOunds to me like you need to go off to college were you can find people like you and dance to your own tune and they will like it. Or they wont but you will be happy to be away from these rudeA-munches you call your friends.
I met my best friend in 4th grade crying near the monkey bars. I asked her what was wrong and she said that her best friends in the world were being mean and making her cry on purpose. In the infinate geniuos of a child I told "if they were your friends they would stop" she went and told them and they were meaner then ever. I told her that they were not worth it and said she could play with me. It really went like that too. I have not been able to shake her after all these years and all these miles.
College will be fun/diffrent, let the jerks go and be free to dance your crazy dancing heart out.
~T
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It is normal for your age. It is a hard age. you are not strange for crying you should be ok. It sounds like you are going through some seperation anxiety. It is ok to cry. Hang in there. It will be different but you will adjust to it. It is a huge step. Just try to chill out and breath find something that relaxes you.
Midlife crisises happen in your 30's or 40's. You are just having a melt down. This is common. It is not abnormal. Try doing something you love to do or something that will take your mind off of it. Things happen and things change you have to learn how to adapt. Dance don't let anyone get you down. you know what? the only person who you should care the most about is yourself!!! Calm down and try to sit back and relax. Everything works out it always does for everyone.
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You're in the middle of a MAJOR life change. It's stressful. Cry as much as you need to! You are transitioning from childhood to adulthood right now. I remember that time of my life. I was a mess too. Don't be so hard on yourself.
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It sounds like a lot of people on here have went through this. Sadly, I have to agree with the person that more or less said to get over it. The real world is not nice. It's the biggest, meanest buttwipe you've ever met, and it will sieze every opportunity to make fun of you.
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