how many people here are missing a parent...or two?
its hard to stand the fact they are so many who lack a parent. I hate not having a dad at home. i mean he does come on saturdays but for what...3-4 hours? and then my mom. he's a married man with a son and she's still there. she knows going out with him is wrong as a woman of faith. come on is that not against one of the 10 commandments? and on MY day. supposibly! pssh...my day of what? my day of only 4 hours spent with him. i have friends say i'm lucky but lucky for what...being ignored by my dad being ignored for my mother. neglected within my own family circle. i know they love me i know they do but my emotions and views of this say otherwise. why can't they stop!!??!!
the only people/person they hurt is me. i can't stand seeing them together. he's not suppose to be here with her. i'm not ashamed of not having a dad but i am ashamed of not really knowing him. my dad has been here (only on sat.) since i was 8. now 8 years later and he is like a stranger. where does he live? how old is he? what is his wife's name? his son's? how about his work number? general things should know but yet do not. how come? i remember him just last year taking me to therapy cause he found out that i recalled vividly what happened on the day i got the call from his wife. and just 2 days before my 8th birthday. in therapy is where i found out his son was 7 years old. or so i assume since i don't know if he was actually lying to me like usual. i'm not looking for pity just for answers to why people act the way they do. why do people commit such actions?
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It's because people are idiots. I personally think that you deserve a lot more than what you have.
Count your blessings! My father walked out on me when I was 6 months old. When I was around a year, he got shot. He got shot because he was hitting on his girlfriend and her 15 year old son shot him. I don't blame the son, I would have shot him too! Anyways, my mom was a drug attic and an alcoholic (she still is) so she couldn't take care of the four children that she had at that time. We went from foster home to foster home. Finally me and my 17 year old brother were adopted by my grandma and the other two went to only God knows where. I haven't seen the other two in over 10 years. I praise God for my grandmother! She took me in! Seriously, I know that it sucks but at least you didn't have my childhood!
It's always hard to not have a parent in your life. My father is almost non-existent in my mind and personally, that's the way I want it. He's not a good person. He's not good enough for me, my sister, or my mother.
I think you're old enough to say something if you want a relationship with your father. Tell him that you want to spend more time with him and get to know him because you DESERVE to know your father. He is in your life but what's the point if you don't know who he really is?
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All the believers, they were smiling and winking at each other, I could honestly say I was scared for my life.
I understand where you are coming from. It's not fair and it shouldn't be that way, but we can't change the past. We can only try and improve the future. I'm tryign to do that with my father now. I am trying to rekindle what we've lost. It's extremyl hard and it brings out a lot of emotions I thought I had left behind already, but I think in the long run, It'll be worth it.
Keep your head up
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