I'm Bringing Sexy Back

I'm Bringing Sexy Back

I can't even begin to truly describe just how awkward I've been during the past 17 and a half years of my life. I've thought I was too skinny in first grade, too chubby in fifth, too tall in seventh, too dark for one thing, too light for some guy, just never perfect enough

You know, I think the media has screwed over women for way too long.
Now that I think about it, it seems almost unbelievable that some things have happened the way that they have. Times have changed and so has the perspective of beauty.
Beautiful bodies have been identified anywhere from fertile (think round), nonexistant, curvy, hourglass-shaped, thin (trying to ignore curves), strong and working, Charlie's Angels (THE ORIGINAL!!!), Marilyn Monroe (the *safer* hourglass - no corset+rib-cracking necessary! lol >__<;;), very fit...

And now buying your body is beautiful, apparently.
I heard once that if Barbie was a real person she would walk on all fours due to the proportions that she has been given.
Yes, Barbie was based off of a person, but not with those proportions.

I don't understand how an unnatural body is sexy.
Something is wrong when people are so unhappy with their bodies that they have to alter them surgically, not naturally, to achieve the appearance that they want.

That isn't to say that there aren't some cases where aesthetic surgery is ok. I mean, reconstructive surgery, and all sorts of things like that. I see nothing wrong with them if it's honestly in the patient's best interest.

I understand how guys can think breasts are sexy, if you want to get into the psychological aspects of it and all.
And if you want to go back to identifying beautiful women as those who are fertile, then I suppose bigger is better.
I'd just rather not develop spinal problems because I want to make someone else to think I'm beautiful by changing who I am instead of them already realizing that I'm beautiful BECAUSE of who I am.

I almost can't believe that it's taken me years to become as comfortable with my body as I am right now.
I understand that I'm not going to be perfect. I'm never going to be white, or blonde, or blue-eyed. I'm never going to be darker than I am unless I spend a long summer in the sun. I'm never going to be completely skinny (and I'm glad, actually), and my body won't support much extra weight to be a "thick ma." (Yes, I've actually heard that phrase before. It happens.). My skin complexion isn't perfect and I'm not sure it ever will be. I'm 5'9", which is actually the average height for guys; the average height for females is about 5'4".
I'm a skinny, light-skinned black woman.

And I think I'm pretty freaking gorgeous.