I wrote this a few months ago. I just needed to vent....
Does turning on the news just make you completely sick anymore? It seriously makes me sick to my stomach anymore. Rarely is there even a hint of good news in the news. It's like watching Satan in action.
The bridge collapse scared the crap out of me tonight. There was a video of it actually falling on the news this morning. It brought back so many feelings of 9/11 and the towers falling. Obviously on a different scale... but you just feel helpless. Do you think it could be terrorism? Bridges have always been alerted to be a possible target for terrorists. There is nothing you could do.... you know? If you're in the middle of the Kennedy bridge and the bridge collapses -- and you KNOW the traffic on bridges like that -- especially in rush hour like last night in Minneapolis. Scary. Obviously -- no one is talking about it anymore...
Then there are stories that hit a little too close to home. Did you see the story about the 14 year old with Autism in Indiana? A man studying to be a pastor of the CHRISTIAN church approached the family about helping them with their son. He decided he was possessed and needed an exorcism! And beat the boy horribly. It makes you wonder how desperate a parent is to "CHANGE" their kids... to believe something like that. And what state of mind they'd be in to allow anyone to do that. Or to even allow them to attempt to remove the devils from these kids. Shame on the man and the parents! I've never looked at my child as having something WRONG with them that I'd ever allow anyone to tell me to fix. Autism has just been a detail of her life, and innocence is the rest. Obviously we have our days, and we strive to reach a higher quality of life so she can function to the best of her ability now and as an adult. But if you look around us -- and even you and I who also have so called "typical children".... we're striving for the same goals as every other parent...
Sorry... I'm ranting. So much about the news just aggrivates me. It really scares me of the type of world we're all living in. So much violence, hate, and so many people who have allowed Satan to take over their lives -- and made the decision to do so. People our kids to exposed to on "family outings".... because you really don't know who that person is sitting in the next booth at McDonalds. No where is a safe shelter if even some officials in our churches are molesting children, or beating them in exorcisms. So what do we do as parents? Do we shelter them from it all depriving them from a life because we don't trust others around us? Or to be put out heart out there in the world, trusting we've done the right thing. To me, innocence isn't exempt from these idiots in the world who do this crap.
Our childrens role models are undoubtly -- and no matter how much we want it to be their parents -- their role models end up being the people on tv, or the radio. Some of the teen pop stars who claimed to be virgins at 15, but at 16,17,18 are getting DUI's twice in a month, going to jail for drug use, pregnant and partying.... These girls set the Fashion do's and don'ts.... they sing what our kids listen to.... and this is cool? It's pathetic to me. Living their lives in the spotlight saying they don't want to be a role model.... knowing damn well they're setting an example. You want to be a role model and liked when your CD is out on the shelf -- but not when your misbhehaving.
Ok, still ranting --
It seems like everyday there is another mother on the news accused of killing her kids. Lately, a woman killed her two young toddler by forgetting them in teh car, brought them home and put them in garbage bags under her sink -- then went out for an Arby's roast beef sandwhich. WHAT? That puts a whole new meaning on the Arby's commercials with people who can't function cause they have Arby's on the brain. What the hell are moms thinking?????? You were chosen by GOD to carry one of his children, his messengers in this world, to deliver them and give them life. God chose us as women as his portal to create life. There is no doubt that every baby ever born is the closest to purity, innocence and Heaven as there is on Earth. It's the MIRACLE of birth isn't that what they say? Another woman killed her infant son, then they found several other dead bodies in their yard of babies she's accused to have given birth to and murdered.
But it can be justified most of the time in court because of "postpartum depression". Well most of you don't know this but I suffered postpartum depression after both of my pregnancies... and I REALIZED that I was feeling different, baby blues, and not as happy as I should but NEVER would I EVER hurt my children. It never even crossed my mind. Even in the worst cases of postpartum psychosis.... (more severe).... even if you're caught up in rage and hurt or kill one child WHICH IS STILL NOT RIGHT... but I'm just saying.... and you claim you didn't know what you were doing due to being mentally insane. You KNOW what you're doing when you go back like Ms Yates did for the other three children, one at a time and drown them. Ok, so after umpteen years in prison she was determined to have been mentally incompetent to stand trial, so she's released? So she can't receive justice for what happened to her kids -- but she has the mental capacity to live a normal life, free in the world?
ok, I'm still ranting -- but COME ON PEOPLE! What are you thinking? Does doing the right thing not come natural to people? I'm not perfect by any means.... but damn it -- I have a conscience that tells me when something is wrong.
One last point.... everyone tests their fate while watching the news. "Why would God let this happen?" Actually the truth is -- he didn't. He gave us Free Will. But he's telling us what we're about to do is wrong.... no one is listening.
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