He Loves Me!!

It all started when I fell in love with him. He's my heart, my happiness, and my best friend. Why can't you understand that. What am I doing wrong? Is it because I love him and he loves me? Is it because we don't want any part of the gossip? I know we see things differently...and that's O.K.....I like being different....with my own way of thinking. I don't want to be like other people....I want to be me. Is that to much to ask? He loves me just the way I am and I too with him. I haven't talk to all of you in so long..not a single breath has been exchanged...and I'm still the center of your conversations. You know....our daily lives are simple and loving...He gets up goes to work...comes home and see's his wife happy to see him....She's missed him so....loves on his daughter and knows she's been in good hands...with a full tummy and played and learned all day...he sits down to a home cooked meal...talking and laughing....he gets ready for bed...search for the that one perfect book to read with his family.....laughter and love has filled his heart....kisses his wife and do love wrestles with his baby girl....and goes to sleep to do it all over again tomorrow. Monday thru Friday that's our routine. Weekends are extra special...He takes us out to show how much he loves us...buys Sydney a toy , a book, or a family project...It could be the smallest thing....but it's O.K....because we are thankful....We go on walks, play in the big sprinklers, swimming, I can just keep going....There's is love that is so addicting between us all...overpowering...and nothing is going to tear us down.  So why try to take that away? My sweet honey is sad...I see it in his eyes...It's killing him! He sees his wife hurt...once again....all he wants to do is fix it...How? Over and over he tries to come up with a plan to fix this...I tell him it's useless....Can't fix something if you don't understand it....He's so afraid to make it worst...He loves his father so much...don't want to step on any toes...but he feels that is probably the only way to get his point across...NO MORE...He screams!!  Our daughter is feeling it...She senses something is out of sorts...we are afraid that one day...probably sooner than later..It's going to get her too..Like daniel being thrown into the lions den.....Because the king liked him so...jealously from his peers....he loved our Lord....happy all of the time...What? My sweet husband has always felt like he's the black sheep...Until now I was sad because it hurts him...Now we are trying to embrace it...we are realizing there's nothing wrong with being the black sheep....We know we are not like you...we don't fit in your circle...we've tried but heart ache was always accomplished not satisfaction....we are the missing puzzle pieces that don't fit...the black sheep...like Jesus...He was hung on the cross because of all did not understand him...they were scared on to look into themselves to search for the true answer....he was the black sheep...sweet as can be...more loving than all...helped others and fought was right...we embrace being the black sheep and we are learning to accept it...It's not a bad thing..it's good...We rather be different than be the same....He tells himself that you are his family still...No matter what! I agree..I've never kept him away...you are doing that on your own...I tell him to call...He pushes it away...Not that he doesn't love you...because he is afraid of the next concoction someone is going to plot. Do you blame him? I don't!