Don't make me laugh, 'coz I already wet myself.

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I’m sick of hiding my secret. I’m sick of fear that my friends will find out, and not want to associate with me…

I have a bladder problem. Even when I was little, I knew something was wrong with me. You see, most kids are potty-trained by the time they’re three. I had a problem with that. I never had to go, and then – KAPOW – all of the sudden, I’d have to pee really bad… Usually, I couldn’t hold it, so I’d pee my pants.

I have a bladder problem. I can’t control it without medications, and I can’t take any of the medications offered because of side affects (mainly bloody noses, which aren’t good for me when I have a tendency to faint). It’s hard, because I’d be so embarrassed if any of my friends, my boyfriend especially, discovered it. It’s not my choice though. It’s to the point where I’m terrified of drinking anything during school, because I never know when – KAPOW – the urge will hit.

I have a bladder problem. I can’t drink anything, or eat anything like ice cream, before I go to sleep, otherwise I’ll wet the bed. Do you know how scary that is, to take a sip of something and not know if it’ll affect you in a shameful way? Do you know how horrible it is, to have friends drinking pop and I can’t, because my body will rid myself of the extra fluid, and I won’t have any clue? It’d be all right to use the bathroom before bed, and drink, but I can’t do that. My bladder doesn’t seem to “fill up” until one crucial moment and then it’s basically life-or-death.

I have a bladder problem. It just sneaks up on me. I can’t have any surgeries, because it wouldn’t do me any good. They’d probably end up moving something the wrong way, or I’d grow, and each operation would be wasted. I wanted to have something done, I’d take any medication I could, but each one has reactions which could be harmful to me. One lowers my blood pressure. Another makes me have nosebleeds and ends up with me being dizzy. Yet another makes me depressed to the point of suicidal. Still one more makes it so that I don’t pee at all. None are worth the risks.

I have a bladder problem. I’m not “gross” or “lazy”, I really can’t control it. I’ve been potty-trained, so that’s not it. I have a medical condition. I’m seventeen years old and I’m terrified of spending the night at someone else’s house… Because I wet the bed sometimes. Because I might involuntarily “have an accident”. I’m a SEVENTEEN YEAR OLD GIRL! I should be always sleeping over at friend’s houses, and they at mine… But I can’t, since I have a condition that is not life threatening, but humiliating. What if they tease me? What if they know? What if they tell? The friends I thought I had would think of me as a baby, and harass me.

I have a bladder problem

IT’S NOT MY FAULT!.

I'm not the only one, either.

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girl dont be ashamed! it's something that you can't control!

acheshirecatsmilehidesall's picture

And people don't understand that.

Thanks for not getting mad at me about telling you that your topic posted a LOT. Oh please Oh please Oh please...

Well can't you point that out to them?
Tell them about it and say look...I cant help it. I am sure everyone has something wrong with them that they cant help.

and its ok!!!! It was my bad! slow computer...

acheshirecatsmilehidesall's picture

Computers can be evil, evil machines.

I wish I could, but my peers aren't the most forgiving of people. =/

I think it would take a really low person to not understand. It might be a little funny/weird at first...but it's something that is really effecting your life...so they should understand and help you out and at the least not make fun of you.

acheshirecatsmilehidesall's picture

It tends to get the "haven't been potty-trained" and "Depends" jokes out.
Very, very annoying.

ediblewoman's picture
Volunteer for the Progressive U Alumni Association

My brother struggled with this, too. Same story. Nothing they could do about it. He did eventually outgrow it, but not until his last growth spurt in his early 20's.

Don't let it define you. I have epilepsy, which can be really embarrassing (and sometimes during a seizure, my bladder releases, which sucks), but you know what? It's a medical condition. No one should judge you for that.

http://www.progressiveu.org/blog/ediblewoman

acheshirecatsmilehidesall's picture

Some do, but usually with major side effects that outweigh the pros (like nosebleeds, dizziness, changes in blood sugar - none of which are good for someone like me, who tends to faint at the drop of a hat, and has a history of blood sugar problems, like diabetes, in the family).

ediblewoman's picture
Volunteer for the Progressive U Alumni Association

I went back and edited my comment, because right after I clicked submit, I realized, "I think she addressed that..." I'll read more carefully next time!

http://www.progressiveu.org/blog/ediblewoman

acheshirecatsmilehidesall's picture

No big deal. Oh please Oh please Oh please...

You're brave for admitting to this and I admire that.

acheshirecatsmilehidesall's picture
frsham's picture

maybe you can help me
im having a bladder problem too..
like at home, its alright.. and normal
but then when i get to summer school, or just school as a whole,
i get these FREQUENT urges to go to the bathroom
and the urges make me feel like im going to wet my pants.. like literally,,
i dont think its medical because it only happens at school
not at home..
then when i ask the teacher to go, he gets all pissed off and becaue he doesn't understand.. please help me
im 16, close to your age, and my parents dont have the time to take me to the doctor..
ive been searching for what my case was, but found no luck, until i came across your page and your story ;]
i felt sorry for your problem and i was wondering , or hoping that you had enough experience to tell me what my problem is.
i feel it is a problem with my conscience because when i get worried about having to pee, i get the urge to go pee. and when i pee, its not even alot, its like a sprinkle almost, unlike when i pee at home.
i told a few of my trustworthy friends, but their answers were all the same; to see the doctor.
its very humiliating to ask to go to the bathroom every hour or so, and i ,like yourself, get scared to eat or drink anything before or during school ;[...
my problem is , in a way, opposite yours because you cant feel the urge, while i feel uneeded urges..
PLEASE HELP ME!!!!!

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