So I have a young baby. And I'm constantly tormented. I want to be there for my daughter 24/7. Which is why my boyfriend and I decided I should stay home with her. Who is better to watch her than me? Her own mama! I know her cues, what makes her laugh, what time she eats her cereal, her noises, her cries, etc. And I love staying home with her. I feel reassured that I won't miss the important "firsts".
But deep down there is that nagging feeling that I'm not living up to standard. I need to bring in the money too! Of course keep the house clean, dinner on the table at 5pm... all while looking gorgeous and feeling fabulous. Okay, I'm just being sarcastic.
So while being a stay-at-home mom isn't glamourous, it certainly is fulfilling! I love being there when my daughter opens her eyes in the morning. Even when the day goes on and she gets cranky because she needs a nap, I'm still so thankful that I can be at home with her. Then I look at the stack of bills pilling up and I think that maybe I need to be working so we won't always be in debt up to our eyeballs.
It's a constant battle. Some people try to make me feel bad that I don't have a job and I don't "provide" for my daughter. But I think I'm doing the best thing possible for her! I'm the best person to take care of her. And can I really trust someone else to do as good of a job as I would? If I were working outside the home I would feel guilty that I weren't home with her. So there you go. All I want to do is give her the best possible future. So I started her a college fund, I'm going to school online, and trying to find a job I can do from home. All to make a better future for my family. So for all those moms out there doing it all- Bless you!
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