I'm stressed out. Overworked. Tired. Sad. Depressed. Confused. Angry. My feet hurt from dancing. And my life is just one big and boring blur. That ex-guy friend/ romance of mine makes me mad. SATs have me going cookoo and AP mock exams are just too much. . .thank god spring break is right around the corner.
I escape boring and bland by reading. From the two fantasy novels, Twilight and New Moon, to the Transendentalist era, Henry David Thoreau's Walden and Civil Disobedience, I block out everything. I don't even realize it when the time comes for me to eat. I would rather skip out on doing optimization homework for Calculus to just read a Chapter of Thoreau's novel. Next is My Antonia, then Sense and Sensibility by Jane Austin.
Is it so bad? I want to live a more exciting than mechanical life. I hate my monotonous schedule of get up, go to school, do homework, fill out scholarships, fill out summer program applications, study for SAT/ACT, plan for college, plan for college, PLAN FOR COLLEGE!!
Is it so bad that I just want to shut out everything to imagine a human girl falling in love with a vampire? Thoreau's ideas about people and society? The lastest teenage romance novel (Gossip Girls)?
Is it bad that I prefer imagination over reality? That I prefer to live vicariously for an hour or two than live in reality?
Or am I just missing something in my life? The books I read and the characters I visualize, they have something that I crave for more than anything. . .love.
I suggest the Sookie Stackhouse series and any Neil Gaiman book, btw.
I know what you're talking about. That ache right under your heart after reading the fairy-tale,sunset ending. Hopefully, your life will slow down after you get into college and settle into your classes and maybe you'll find that person that eases that gnawing under the ribs when you hug them. I really hope so.
Mom's being a slavedriver for dem scholarships right now. D:
sig: haHA!
All that I ever do is read, and by that I mean that almost all of my free time is consumed in books. I totally understand what you mean with all the stress. By the way My Antonia is really good. My most recent reading accomplishment was The Count of Monte Cristo, I loved it.
The Count of Monte Cristo!! oo i love it too!