Is anyone crushing your dreams or ambitions right now? If they are, I sympathize with you. If no one is, please get what I'm saying.
On Sunday, I visited a college that is on my final list. Unlike all my friends, I haven't decided where to go yet. I'm still trying to figure out what will be more affordable, but more importantly, where I'll fit in and feel comfortable. I loved the college, but one thing stuck out the whole time: how small it was. The dean told us how lucky we were to be accepted. Over 3,000 applications came in, but only 440 had been accepted. At first walking around the school, I thought, "this is nice." But as the day went on, I realized that the size of the campus was a little smaller than I'd like. I already knew where everything was. Also, from looking at how many kids there were, I could tell that it might be too cliquey. I was constantly texting my friends saying that that was the huge flaw that I hated. On my way home, my parents talked about how much they liked the school and how they could see me going there; but I felt a little different. I still hadn't made up my mind, but now I have and my parents aren't happy.
Today, I decided that I would like to stay in state and go to school where my best friend is going. Of course, that didn't influence my decision. We had previously dicussed, back when we were naive, that if we both got into the same school we'd both go. Her sister laughed saying how stupid we were. Well, for the past year, it seemed like we heading down different paths, but now it's changed. The school she's attending is my second choice; I loved it there.
The school offers me better internships since I'm close to New York, while the other one is farther and their internships weren't all too impressive. The school is closer to my home, but my dad had previously agreed to let me live on campus. Or if I don't live on campus, he'd get me a car so I don't break down.
So, my parents now don't support my decision to go to the school. My brother doesn't even support me 100% like he always has.
Second, they don't support my career choice. My brother too agrees that the career I want won't give me enough income. Also, that I'll end up paying more in debt than what the career is worth. I understand that, but I don't want to be miserable.
Maybe, I'll change my mind later on about what I would like to be. Maybe, I'll transfer schools. But for now, can't anyone just support where I want to go and who I want to be?
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