I can't believe the blog I wrote about having grown up and becoming apart of college life. I have been at college for nearly a year, and I can't believe how much my life has changed. I guess I'll have to start back in September to update and show how much I've grown and changed in the last six months.
Starting at the beginning of September, I started lose a little weight. I noticed that the more healthy I ate, the better my body looked, and I loved the control. I couldn't control my boyfriend's choices to go to Notre Dame, while I was in school in Texas, I couldn't control my lack of social life, so I thought, and I couldn't control everyone else, so I decided to control my food intake. I would walk into the dining hall, get a small piece of chicken and a tiny salad, and eat that for dinner. I really was eating probably 1000 calories a day, and excercising off 500 calories. I was literally in starvation mode. I'm 5 foot 3 inches, so I shouldn't really weigh anymore than 115. But I started to lose weight rapidly, and before i knew it I weighed a somewhat healthy 103. No big deal, I thought. If I could just lose a tiny bit more, I would so good. So I continued to bust my butt at the gym, and eat near to nothing a day. At my worst, I got down to 97 pounds. I looked like a skeleton. My bones stuck out, yet I thought my stomach was so fat, and my thighs were huge. DEEP DOWN, I realized I had an eating disorder, but I never really accepted it, until Christmas break, where somehow, I finally came to terms with my boyfriends choice to attend a far away school. I didn't seek medical help: instead, I researched how to help myself, and my situation improved. Not dramatically, and not quickly. However, today, I am much better. I struggle everyday with my body image, but I now weigh 101 pounds. Not much to the common person, but it's infinitely better for me. I just want to share my story so someone out there who is living on celery like I did might realize how dangerous and unattractive and unhealthy it really is. I really want to support anyone who has the courage to change their behavior, we can do it!!!
• 
• 
• 
• 
• 
Am glad you wrote this because writing is a great way t orelive all the pain trust me his is what i do all the time even when am not posting. When i wan to say something but i can't i write... to death.. but it takes away my frustration. Sometime i study, but most of the time i write.
Just read my article Should daddy teach machismo to his son?
You will understand that we all go throgh this drama in life that are somtime not very neccesary