I have made out a list as to what I'm going to be asking my admissions office when I call them tomorrow. Hopefully at that point, I will know how to get things started for acceptance, and then eagerly await when I can finally file my FAFSA application.
I have hit a slight snag in things, as I have temporarily lost my job. Whether I return to work when my store re-opens, I'm not qute sure. I think I will take my weekend and following week to finish at home projects, research, and setting up a portfolio. After this, I may call up a temp agency and try to find a temporary job that may last me until the store re-opens.
I feel...uneasy. I'm not getting paid very much for my job. I currently work for a chain of re-sale CD, DVD, and video games. It is a small business, and I don't get offered much...but I love working here. I like the people that come in, I like having control of what I do while I work...if I wish to change something, I have the ability to change it. There are times where I can be on the internet if the day is going slow...or watch movies, or play games. It's a fun job for someone who is a kid at heart(and maybe a bit of a slacker...I will admit).
I also suffer from general anxiety disorder, a panic disorder, and agoraphobia. These have a profound impact on my life; how I live it, how I manage it, and how I try not to let it get to me. For me to change jobs so quickly...even the idea of falling outside of being comfortable...it all rips me apart inside. Worries, thoughts, things that are completely irrational all run through my head, toy with my emotions, and just make me outright depressed, jumpy, and unmotivated. I'm worried for what a new job will entail.
I need to save up. Every. Single. Penny. And I know that maybe a month out of work might not be so bad. I have enough to where I can pay for my previous student loans for quite a few months. There are other expenses I need to take care of, such as new tires for my car...and I am hoping they don't put that much of a damper on my bank account. The good thing about being me is I am forgetful. I have a savings account that has some emergency funds that I tend to forget about, plus some extra money placed from commissions that I keep forgetting about. I have at least $150 in emergency funds. That will help when it comes to being jobless. And maybe I'll get a few more commissions that will not only help me financially, but not allow me to fall into the fit of depression that happens when one becomes bored and has nothing to do.
I am going to be participating in 24-hour Comic Day next Saturday. I am very excited, as I have missed it because of work for three years now. I'm hoping to use my panels as examples in my art portfolio, and hopefully have some fun drawing with friends and other comic lovers.
Halloween is also coming! It is my favorite time of year! We are going to be having a little party with treats and scary movies. Evil Dead, Hellraiser, and Re-Animator are some of the ones in our list. I'm hoping to snag Silent Hill at some point as well...because one can't be without Pyramidhead on Halloween. :) I'm also thinking of working on my home-made lightsaber hilt a little to perfect it and go to our little party as a Jedi. It's always so much fun to dress up. I wish I could do it more often!
Anyway...back to the point of this journal(somewhat), I spoke to my mother about my returning to school. She seems very excited for me, and happy that I finally am making a move to go back. My mother went back to school when she was older and she appreciated it a whole lot more, so her words of encouragement definitely make a difference in my mood about the whole thing. I have yet to tell my father, but I don't expect his reaction to be any less than my mother's.
I also wish to thank everyone for their words of encouragement. It is, and always will be, very much appreciated. :)
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