why is there a need for return?

thoughts of you run heavy through my mind i though it was over why is there a need for return i thought things were over truely dead and gone but apartently i didnt bury the tought of you deep enough... he ask if ive ever thought of what life would be like with you instead of him why i do not know but for so long i havent thought thoughts of that kind i burried them with you and with our past i let it all die or so i thought but now you walk back into my mind like it was yesterday that we shared the days of laughter the nights of smiles and sweet words i wish you felt the same as i do but you dont you dont feel the love for me that i will always feel for you you dont hold me deep in your heart in the special place and i thought it was all ok i thought i could pick up my life and carry on and maybe i can but its hard the hardest thing i have ever gone through the thoughts had cessed to exsist but now i journey back to them and think of the life that could have been the things i have with him and not you i shouldnt torture myself like this i should let you go but i have never recieved the closesure i need to move on completely i still love you and always will i need for you to tell me that its all ok that life is what it is ment to be that you love her not me...