My whole life I was told that college and being sucessful (as in rich and powerful) were the only thinks that mattered; that the moment we're in doesn't matter, the future holds everything I'll need to be happy.
Well, I got sick of waiting. Here I am, 18, going to college on more scholarships than I need, holding a full-time job, paying for a truck that's worth my than my life, being one of the most responsible teenagers you've ever seen, but I wasn't happy. (Can you imagine why?)
I have been told what I needed to do but not how to do it. I was being completely controlled, but at the same time, no one told me how I was supposed to conquer these hideous tasks that I was told had to be done. Everyone says that I need to be an adult, but what they fail to realize is that I was an adult my whole childhood, from taking care of my alcoholic father to caring for myself cause everyone was too busy drinking to realize I was there.
That's when I realized crying doesn't get you anywhere. If you want something, you better do it yourself. And that's what I did. I wanted to be happy, put some excitement and adventure back in my life. So I did, I moved around and got a taste of the real world and how much fun everything is once you're not being forced into a narrow mind set.
I'm not going to skip out on college, I'm not going to live on the streets, and I'm not going to turn into a junkie. And to those who think I can't do it on my own, just watch, you might just be surprised by the results.
So, in case you were wondering what happened to me, there you go.
I'm doing what I want to do now.
I'm in control.
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I feel the same way
being an adult when you're supposed to be a child
wanting to have fun and enjoy yourself, but instead you're pressured with jobs, SATs, school and college prep.
sometimes you just need to do what you want to do. .
I understand why it's so important, but isn't it supossed to be fun, also? I want to do what I need to do (Ironic), but it gets hard.
H.
Huh. I thought in your other post ("I learned everything I know from a book with half the pages torn out") you were 19, but here you say you're 18. Uh...happy sudden birthday?
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I wrote this at a stressful time in my life. I posted it because I felt it gave the necessary background information about me for my future blogs. I am 19 now. Sorry about the misunderstanding, I just wanted people to have some background on who I am.
H.