I was also raped at a young age, by a man who was suppose to protect me. My step dad raped me at like 5. And told me to never tell. He said if I did he would kill my mother. I love my mother so much i was willing to take it. But then it got unbearable he was in my room every night, doing as he will with me. I guess my god mother sensed something was not right, because she told my mother i was going to stay with her for a while, because her daughter felt alone. I stay at her apartment during the night so he founa a new way of getting to me. I had to go to our apartment after school because she was home, and me and her daugther went to the same school. So we would walk home and then he would tell me to go change my clothes and he would follow me into the room and he did what he wanted. Then one day he put his penis in me and i guess he did something because I had internal bleeding and my stomach area was hurt when I got to school. I started crying in class and then the teacher told my God Sister to take me to the nurse (we were the same age). And I dont know what happened i guess she took x-rays because she couldnt find the problem and same what she saw and called the hospital and the police.
Today I can't even really have a boyfriend and when i did have sex i felt nothing but pain and I really love that person. We broke-up because he couldn't understand me and I talk to boys and everything but I can't have a romantic relationship with them and I hate myself because of it.
I really think my mother new what was going on, but was'nt strong enough so she just let it happened so I hate for letting it happen.
My question is too, why do bad things happen to good people
You are not alone.
Although I strongly recommend you seek professional assistance, because it's more helpful and comforting to talk to somebody face-to-face, here are a few websites including some chat rooms that can help you. The chat rooms are for adult survivors of child abuse like you, and the people there will be able to relate and give you some advice.
http://twhj.com/
http://www.yesican.org/chat.html
http://incestabuse.about.com/mpchat.htm
http://stopitnow.com/resourceguide/rg03_vicsurv.html
Please feel free to Private Message me if you need anything,
Kate
I was assaulted by my step father, it wasn't as severe as rape, but I feel that it has ruined me. Alittle. My mother turned against me. She was always against me even before he touched me. She always agreed with what he said, I felt like I was being abused because she would hit me even if I looked at him incorrectly. After it happened she forged a legal document, signing my name, saying that the whole thing never happened. I couldn't believe it. I am sorry about what happened to you. I didn't go through anything as bad as you, but it hurt so bad when my mother put me out just to be with his bitch-ass. F**k him!!!
Its ok, Don't hold a grudge against either of them. they are living there happy live and we are the ones suffering. U keep a grudge u will be holding it until u die
In fact that is a question that ma never be answered. I hope that one day someoe flips the switch and makes it so bad thing happen to bad people.
I can not sit here and tell you I know what you are oging through because I have no idea. The only thing I can do is wish you the best of luck in your life and someday I promise something good will happe to you.
thanks for the words of encoragement