Well everyone, I finally did it. I wrote a letter of resignation. As of December 31st 2007, I will no longer be gainfully employed. That's right, come December 31st, 2007, I will be joining the ranks of the unemployed. The few. The proud. And in more cases than I care to consider, the I refuse to work for a living.
I was absolutely terrified when I sat down to write that letter, to be quite honest about it. I've been thinking about it for months now. I've decided to do it six times already. And then I I would immediately change my mind. I just could not write that letter. Since joining the ranks of adulthood, I've been unemployed only once... for the month it took to leave my job at the nursing home, move to Little Rock, get settled in and find a new job.
And for two years now, I've worked that new job. In between school and Aloshua crises, I worked. Sometimes 40 hours a week, sometimes 10 hours a week. Whatever I could do, whenever I could do it. And somewhere in all of that, I lost the desire to continue doing it.
I adore my patients. I love my co-workers. The organization is great. I just no longer have the desire to continue working in the health field. Actually, if I were more honest I would say I haven't wanted to work in the health care field at all the last two years, but I'm not ready to face the implications of that.
In reality, I continued working because that's what adults do. We get up, we go to work and it doesn't matter if it is the job we want to do or the job we like to do. Liking the job isn't a necessity, but having a job is a pretty big necessity for most people. Myself included.
I have no idea what I will do when my resignation officially takes effective. But I do know that it was necessary. One can only become so burnt out before one does something about it. And with algebra quickly approaching... doing something about it was becoming rather dire.
I think I'll do something simple for a while. Take a pay cut. work for myself, doing what I want to do. Recharge. And of course, continue on here at ProgressiveU as I have for over half a year now and with the freelance things I do. Maybe something amazing will come along. I could do with a dose of amazing right about now. Don't get me wrong, being of help to someone that needs it is the most amazing thing you can do, but eventually you have to stop being amazing for everyone else and be amazing for yourself. My job was the opposite of that, I think. It went nowhere, involved more housecleaning than anything and let's face it, getting attached to people and watching them die leaves a giant stain on the soul. It never goes away. Ever.
Writing that letter was great. All the worry evaporated when I signed my name and I breathed a little sigh of relief. I'm actually doing it. Two years later, I've worked up the courage to say to hell with it, jump and see where I land. I should probably be horrified that I've done it. I might be before all is said and done. But for now, I feel great. I have no regrets. I did what I should have done a long time ago.
If that's not personal progress... I don't know what is!
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Congratulations :)
Good luck in where the future takes you!
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Thanks. I'm excited. Probably insane, but true nonetheless. Who knew quitting a job could be so.... liberating (to steal Fanaile's expression)?
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"In the Land of Memory, the time is always Now.
In the Kingdom of Ago, the clocks tick... but their hands never move.
There is an Unfound Door
(O Lost)
and memory is the key which opens it." -King
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Ugh, tell me about it. Makes me want to quit. LOL
Quitting Famous Footwear was the best feeling of my life.
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this is war. every line is about who i don't wanna write about anymore. [Brand New]
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follow your heart honey
don't force aything. If its meant to be, the Lord will make it work for you
Thank you dear. It's odd, when writing, I refuse to force anything, but working is a totally different story. Funny how that works.
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"In the Land of Memory, the time is always Now.
In the Kingdom of Ago, the clocks tick... but their hands never move.
There is an Unfound Door
(O Lost)
and memory is the key which opens it." -King
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I just wanted to tell you that. No matter what you're writing about, it's always interesting to me.
Congratulations on quitting your job--I hope you find a new one that suits you better. Good luck, and please don't get fed up with this site! You're probably my favorite blogger.
CEM
Thanks dear :) Reading that made my morning.
I won't be leaving ProgressiveU anytime soon (which translates roughly to probably never). Despite the things I've come to dislike greatly, I do like the behind the scenes moderating aspects and then there are bloggers, like you, that make the parts that have become depressing a little less so.
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"In the Land of Memory, the time is always Now.
In the Kingdom of Ago, the clocks tick... but their hands never move.
There is an Unfound Door
(O Lost)
and memory is the key which opens it." -King
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Did you make good money at your previous job before you wrote your resignation? Because if you did, then why would you want to quit your job?
Read my blog!
Job satisfaction has absolutely nothing to do with money. If you aren't happy with your job, why would you want to stay at it and work there day after day, being miserable and dreading to go to work?
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bigger goals come to mind.
I don't enjoy mine, but it pays for my bills, loans and also pays for my current go at college.
That outweighs any discomfort.
Hm. I don't see the point in being miserable when you can make a change that allows you to still do those things and find a little peace of mind. Eventually letting go of the fear and having a little more faith (in yourself and your abilities) takes you further than working the 9 to 5 that leaves you in tears at the end of the day and takes you nowhere.
Of course, it's easier to say that now because I have decided to actually go for it. A year ago, I would have said the same thing as you. Now? I can handle a little less job security and not feel like I'm failing at some necessity, something vital to being an adult. If anything, I think I've failed the last two years. Letting worry and doubt stand in the way instead of testing your wings once in a while is sad... and we're more comfortable doing it no matter how miserable it makes us because life demands security come first. It always has for me, even though in reality, it really didn't have too. My job didn't make or break us. It never has. But, not working is foreign to me nonetheless.
For once, I say screw security, (as idealistic as it sounds) I think I would rather fly for a little while. The world isn't going to end if I don't find a new job right away. Bills won't go unpaid. Life won't be lived in a cardboard box. It will just be... different.
And different, even if it is a little uncomfortable or foreign, is a good thing. Change doesn't happen if you stand in one place and will it.
I do see your point though. Sometimes, it's not an option. Other concerns have to come first. It's part and parcel of what being an adult is all about.
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"In the Land of Memory, the time is always Now.
In the Kingdom of Ago, the clocks tick... but their hands never move.
There is an Unfound Door
(O Lost)
and memory is the key which opens it." -King
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Well, I need the money in order to reach my goals.
If one chooses to live now like no one else would want to, they can later live like no one else is able to.
Rather than taking more loans out for school, I am paying out of pocket (500 bucks a month) so that when I get my degree, I only have what's left of my loans from my first attempt at college.
in order to manage that, I have had to cut back on doing lots of things that'd be 'fun' and work a job that I do, rather than doing whatever seems like a fun job.
However, once I have that degree, and that teaching license, I'll be able to loosen up quite a bit. In fact, my pay is expected to go UP when I become a teacher (and I'll be working for less of the year. heh.)
Sacrifices now are sometimes necessary in order to embrace dreams later.
one of the best things about our Country and our economic models is that both of us have the freedom to do things our way.
People in much of the world would leap for the chance to do what we do and have what we have..... further showing how great our country really is, depite the naysayers.
Stress can do bad things to people. You have to be true to your heart
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Why do you get to quit but I have to be fired?
Nicholas Aden
Self-Promotion
They have a better sense of timing?
*grin*
Damn...
Nicholas Aden
Self-Promotion
Good job!
Honestly, I can't picture myself working for anyone. I'd probably quit too if I have no more desire for the company I'm working for. Start something new on your own and with your two hands! I think it'll be very interesting and exciting. I am too in the process of doing so. I wish you the best of luck! No matter what, you have us to cheer you on! Woo Hoo
*Waves a Flag that says, "Fallon Rules!"*
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Only you could write about quiting your job and make it sound like both the greatest achievement ever and an exciting adventure. Good luck with whatever comes next!
"Excellence is the result of caring more than others think is wise, risking more than others think is safe, dreaming more than others think is practical, and expecting more than others think is possible."
I think you'll do fine with whatever you choose to do in life. I know the feeling that you have. I spend countless hours away from my family trying to learn about the best ways or the most innovative ways to help save lives (like I did the last few days that I was missing). Then I go back to work and deal with the idiots of life and deal with death and dying. It's frustrating and exhausting. Even though I am going to continue working in the nursing field through to BSN, I am choosing to study law afterwards just to keep myself from getting burnt out. It really is hard to watch young kids die, and old people die. You do get attached, even if it isn't long term care. You bust your ass to save them and quite honestly, it's a futile effort and you know that in the back of your mind.
CONGRATS!!
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Respectfully,
Adam
A-Team Member
No more chats from work, I s'pose. Shucks.
But seriously...good luck, Fallon. I'm sure you can find plenty of ways to make it, with your brains.
--Samus
(if you're not outraged, you're not paying attention)
Congrats on opening yourself up to the crappy job market out there! *waves from desk*
"Only two things are infinite: the universe and human stupidity--and I'm not so sure about the universe"
-Albert Einstein
Well thank you. I had another job before my last day at that one. Sometimes it's worth it, even though some will probably never understand that. It's not progressive enough.
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Like writing? So do we!
~Fallon~
"If I fall asleep with a pen in my hand, don't remove it - I might be writing in my dreams."- Pace
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